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2005-01-11T16:06:00.000+08:00

hey peeps..
got a new bloggy up for me n bao bei..
hmmx..
dun tink wil abandone tis blog..
but wun update so often here..
tink wil update more often at tat bloggy..
here's e add:
http://ourendlesslove.blogspot.com
thx peeps..
kekex..

post bdae..

2005-01-04T23:53:00.000+08:00

hahax..
din get too excited..
cuz i'm jux a lil beta dan cj..
i got 3 presents..
kekex..
but stil got 1 more super belated de on e way..
tats my dream mp3..
but a lil sad oto..
cuz no more stock le..
oto dunno stil got more 2 import anot lox..
so sumhow stil lil sianx..

anw..
b4 sum1 stil complains tat i din mention his present or wad..
i 1st recieved my present fr cj..
its a smaller version of e pink piggy which i bot 4 qing ren 4 her bdae de..
not sure if u guys now wad i'm tokin bout..
but its bot fr 'e action city' de lox..
*thx cheng jin*
den e 2nd present..
was a look-a-like horse ting..
but til now stil unable 2 figure out wth it is..
anw..
*thx francis*
den e 3rd n most impt present..
was fr my lao gong(bao bei la)..
it was my dream ring i mentioned in e last post..
*thx bao bei..
muackx*
den tats all le..
kekex..

hmmx..
so its concluded lox..
haha..
so dun complain 2 me le ar cj..
bleah..

ps:
bao bei..
dun wu hui k..
jux rem wad i'd told u in e past few daes n wad was saved in ur outbox typed by me de k..
love u..
*muackx*

wo zou lerx..
*chao xiang bao bei(dunno y)*
*muackx n huggiex*

bdae bdae!!

2005-01-02T01:36:00.000+08:00

yeahx..
its my bdae le~~
finally 17 liaox..
stil got a long way 2 go..
hahax..

anw..
4 e 1st time on my bdae..
i dun hav any cake 2 cut..
so means no wish is bein made..
i was spendin it wit mt bao bei..
i got e ring i'd been dreamin of as e present..
*thx bao bei alot alot..
love it very much..
kekex..
muackx*
got no1 in my fam 2 celebrate wit me..
got no1 2 gather at home 2 celebrate..
got no presents from them..
(mb they tink i'm old enuff 2 get everyting 4 myself le bahx..)

dunno whether its good or bad..
mb it started off dull 2 me..
cuz was rainin whole dae too..
but luckily..
bao bei brightened it..
a lil pek chek though..
but at least enjoyed it..
keke..
went 2 watch kung fu wit bao bei..
as he was late..
so went 2 buy e tix 1st..
den he smsed me 2 get him a bottle of ice mountain..
so tis movie costed me $21.60..
tootx..
a bottle of green tea n mineral water cost $4.60..
rubbish lei..
but stil nvm..
tat baka..
blur until go take e goods de lift..
den make himself later 2 meet me..
sum more our show had oredy started..
cooled down soon enuff..

den discovered my present hidden in his back pocket..
was pesterin him 2 let me hav it while waitin 4 train 2 sbw..
(goin there 2 hav our dinner..)
finally got it wen i was forced 2 close my eyes..
at 1st stil dunno wat it was..
cuz din recognise e box..
lil did i expect it was e ring i'd wanted all along..
kekex..
tat baka..
stil made me blif he got sumting else 4 me..
but it made it e most wonderful present i'd gotten..
kekex..
but a disappointment followed next..
it was too big 4 my finger..
so sad lox..
haix..
finally owned it..
but too big 4 me..
-.-..
can onli wear it on my thumb lox..
*sobx*
den put on his ring 4 him..
while havin mine on hold..
cuz cun wear..
wil drop off very easily..
was so sad..
den bao bei called e branch he bot it fr..
(bits & pieces at cwp de..)
asked if they hav a smaller size..
cuz if they dun hav n i cun wear..
den no point liaox..
e person there says its available..
so told him/her we're goin bak later b4 10..
went 2 sakae sushi 2 eat..
had our dinner there..
den went up 2 e arcade..
(we were there 4 tat purpose..)
but dun hav e game i like n noe how 2 play..
so went bak 2 cwp 2 change my ring..
reach there le den e person told us e smaller size de is not available at tis branch..
den its either we wait til nx thur 4 them 2 br down here 4 us..
if not we go down 2 e brach tat is available..
tats is at cineplex de..
as we cun afford 2 wait..
so decided 2 go down ourselves..
coincidently..
we 1st saw e pair of ring at cineplex de branch..
kekex..
den jux nice onli tat branch has my size..
kekex..
fated de?..
cuz we saw it there 4 e 1st time b4 we were 2gether..
den now we gotta go bak agn aft we're 2gether..
kekex..
dunno lei..
or mb its jux pure coincidence bahx..
^.^
den aft tat he sent me home..
but no1 was at home..
den a lil sianx..
but tot of bao bei..
den cheered up a lil..
kekex..
at least stil got him 2 acc me bahx..

den ydae..
went 2 class in da mornin..
den came home 2 hav my lunch..
n 2 unload my bag too..
den left home wit mum..
(cuz she goin out 2 play mahjong..
she brought my niece wit her..)
so i was carryin my niece while she was holdin onto 2 umbrella..
den dunno how she hold de..
keeps tiltin it 2 her side..
den 2 prevent my niece fr gettin wet..
so i kept walkin 2wards her..
den my soles ar..
damn slippery wen it touches e drain's metal cover lox..
so i slipped..
but din fell..
managed 2 grip my niece firmly..
so she din fly la..
but i got hurt in my back..
cuz sort of supported her den managed 2 support myself wit my legs spilt den body slant to 1 side lox..
cuz its on a part of e slope mah..
den was oredy late in meetin them in sch le..
den stil kena tis kinda tings..
considered a lil suay oto la..
hahax..

went 2 e je tingy 2 help out..
was rainin e whole dae..
stop den rain den stop agn..
been lidat e whole time lox..
den sianx..
cuz everybody was wet..
hahax..
den got alot of tings cork up oto..
tink e organisin com a lil cork up..
not detailed enuff lox..
damn sianx..
den it looks more like our event instead of theirs..
lolx..
den e food ar..
cork up oto..
dun tink its edible lox..
hahax..
in all..
e project is a total failure ar..
except e performance part..
not so bad la..
jux tat e organisation..
sux alot lox..
really is go there 2 kio sai 1..
finally ended at 11pm..
was 1hr late..
but nvm..

den actually wanna go meet bao bei 2 countdown under his blk de..
but he wasnt allowed out..
so chatted wit qing ren, ah gong, gan ma n lao pa b4 goin home..
left je at 11.55..
haha
5 mins b4 2 countin down..
dun wanna pet packed like sardine..
lolx..
den met my sis on e way home..
(she jux came bak fr my sister's hs 4 e countdown party..)
we were e 1st 2 reach home..
den mum came bak at 1am..
den went 2 bathe..
den went 2 slp liaox..
was super tired..
hahax..

bao bei..
thx alot 4 e present..
its e most wonderful present cuz i love it alot..
plus..
it was fr u de oto..
tats wad really made it wonderful lox..
kekex..
thx bao bei..
*HUGGIEX N MUACKX*

wo zou lerx..
*miz bao bei alot..*
*officially mrs yu liaox..*
*muackx*

xin ku wo lerx

2004-12-30T01:07:00.000+08:00

hahax..
wu liaox..
not xin ku at all lox..
tat baka..
dunno how 2 take care of himself de..
sick lidat super jia lat den go c doc..
so went 2 e polyclinic wit him ydae..
tats y wasnt in sch e whole dae..
acc him home..
n stayed wit him til bout 6..
cuz he was feelin a lil feverish..
so wasnt fang xin enuff 2 leave..
den fell aslp on e floor aft he did..
got him 2 eat sum congee at bout 3.30 wen he woke up..
den had him take his medi..
den send him bak 2 bed agn..
hahax..

den 2dae oto..
went str 2 his hs aft sch..
cuz was worried..
wasnt able 2 conc in sch 2dae..
jux rushed there immediately..
actually not immediately oto la..
went 2 lot 1 to look 4 another husky 4 bao bei..
(he bot one 4 me on mon..
heex..
sum more went 2 north point 2 look 4 it..
but din find it..
so is tryin other places lox..)
was hopin i cud surprise him wit it mahx..
so went there 2 look 4 it..
but too bad lox..
din manage 2 find it..
asked him if he wanted anyting..
but he said he dun wan..
oto cun tink of anyting 2 buy 4 a patient too..
so went there empty-handed..

as his grandma was slpin wen i reached there..
so jux went in quietly..
cuz din wanna wake her up..
den guess she wanst quite happi tat i came bahx..
oto dunno lei..

den on mon..
hmmx..
wad we did ar?..
oh..
we went 2 cwp aft sch..
den went 2 kiddy palace..
den he bot me a husky..
heex..
jux felt sweet bahx..
kekex..

bao bei..
jux take care of urself k..
its jux e start of e new sem onli den oredy sick liaox..
how can worx..
baka lei..
take care k..
weather is cold..
wear more..
go slp liaox..
wan an..

wo zou lerx..
*miz bao bei*
*muackx n huggiex*

none

2004-12-27T01:24:00.000+08:00

haix..
y?..
y cun we b like other couples?..
i dunno wats wrong lox..
haix..
i’m not sayin tat he dun listen 2 me lox..
but e more impt tingy..
he jux dun listen lox..
den he jux listen 2 those more toopid n not so impt de tingys..
wad the tootx lox..
but tis time..
its so damn serious lox..
its bout he’s health de lox..
sianx lox..
damn sianx..
tat time doc gave him 2 daes of mc 2 let him stay at home 2 rest le..
n stil told him tat he cun do any sports for 2 weeks..
but now..
its not even 1 week lox..
n he’s gone 2 play bb liaox..
wtf..
i’m damn pissed off lox..
previously oredy told him he cun go liaox..
den stil reminded him 2dae wen he said he feels like goin 4 a game..
den he told me e reason y..
sayin e fren of guo feng is goin down 2 yishun..
den say dunno wad go entertain him or wat so ever..
in turn i said..
i bet he din tell his frenx bout his injury lox..
wtf..
cuz if his frenx noes bout it..
i dun blif they’ll stil ask him down lox..
i even analyzed 2 him how serious e situation is lox..
since e doc gave him 2 daes of mc..
it means its not sumting tat can play play wit lox..
wtf..
den he stil lidat..
dun wanna take care of himself..
stil promised me wil b bak in an hour..
fuk lox..
its all lies..
it’s a promise unkept..
wtf..
i hate it..
i hate it wen ppl dun keep their promises..
i even smsed him lox..
guess wats e time wen he’d finally smsed or call me?..
tat was bout 1½ hours aft e promised time..
fuk lox..
den at e end of e dae..
hu’s fault is it wen e injury gets worst?..
blame ur parents 4 givin u such lousy body?..
no lox..
jux blame urself 4 not takin care of it wen it starts 2 fail u lox..
den onli start 2 regret onli wen it gets damn worst..
fuk lox..
zao zhi jing ri he bi dang chu ne?..
wtf..
dun care le la..
wo bu guan le..
since he dun even care bout himself..
y shud i even care..
fuk lox..

was stil so happily out wit him at orchard ydae..
n now..
sianx..

anw..
met him at 3.30 at yishun mrt stn..
(btw..
he was supposed 2 meet me at 3..)
we jux went walkin ard in orchard..
went 2 walk walk at far east 1st..
den went 2 tanglin mall..
heex..
finally managed 2 find our way there le..
den he bot a big bar of white choc 4 me..
kekex..
*thx le*
tats was 4 xmas..
as 4 his present..
heex..
i bot him his fav cheese bread as usual..
i guess tat was it?..
hahax..
no la..
haha..
e actual present is stil in e mist of on makin la..
as we were both tired aft e walk..
so rested at e benches jux bside e choc shop while he eats up e cheese bread..
as he needs 2 take medi..
so went into e market place there 2 buy him his usual ice moutain n my usual gui hua lu cha..
den played wit a lil kid sittin bside us while his mum’s tryin 2 feed him..
hahax..

den went bak 2 orchard..
so aft bak fr tanglin..
walked all e way 2 heeren..
jux 2 go there 2 look 4 my dreamt high-cut shoes..
haha..
but stil..
no new stock..
den went 2 take neo print..
kinda crowded there..
but lucky our machine wasn’t too crowded..
(we’re e next in line..)
tink e outcum was kinda nice bahx..
hahax..
1st tine we’re wearin not so sui bian 2 town..
hahax..

as i was hungry..
den walked 2 taka there 2 look 4 my tori q..
kekex..
bot 4 sticks of my fav chic..
den he bot 2 cheese sticks..
1 4 each of us..
kekex..
den went home liaox..
took train 2 marina bay..
den went home..
de lidat bahx..

wo zou lerx..

sianx..

2004-12-24T15:58:00.000+08:00

sianx..
yes..
i'm in his hs agn..
n there..
he was plannin where 2 go n wat 2 do wit his fReNx agn..
fine lox..
fine..
i dun care liaox..
i hate it lox..
wth..
its xmas eve lox..
fuk..
y cun he jux pay fUlL attn 2 me jux oNcE?..
wth..
die die muz go out wit his frenx de mehx..
MUX meh?..
wtf..
say me wad cun go out at nite..
can ask de rite..
wats e use of e mouth?..
2 aSk de lox..
he din even ask lox..
den lidat..
wth..
fuk la..
den i noe wats he gonna say next..
'i'm not sendin u home 2dae..
wun get angry hor..
sorry lei..'
do i hav e rite 2 even say no?..
nO lox..
ya la..
all he cares bout is his bloody frenx la..
wtf..

zou ler la
*damn fukin pissed off*

backie~

2004-12-23T23:03:00.000+08:00

hehex..
aft so many daes..
(k la..
actually not tat many la..
jux bout 3 daes bahx..
but it feels like long enuff 4 us le lox..)
finally..
we made up~!!
kekex..
our relationship ain tat weak afterall..
kekex..

so..
went 2 bugis 2 meet him ydae..
cuz he was at sim lim square 2 look at e labtops there..
(he's gettin 1..
rich rite..
haix..
wealthy ppl r lidat de lox..
lolx..)
actually intended 2 go meet my parents aft tat..
(cuz dad's off dae..
den they went shoppin at orchard..)
but was gettin late..
so decided 2 go home instead..
den cooked 2 packets of maggie mee 2 eat..
heex..
was damn hungry lox..
so managed 2 finished all of it..
heex..

den 2dae..
met bao bei at city hall aft sch..
(he'd mc for 2 daes..
tink he'd hurt he's ribbone or wad bahx..
tink its quite serious oto..
haix..
*xin tong*)
went 2 look at e dell koisk at suntec there..
he's gettin his own personal labby 2ml liaox..
xin mu rite..
tootx lo hor..
hahax..
den as bao bei was hungry..
so we bot sum bread fr e bakery at my hs there..
den jux sat below my blk 2 enjoy it..
heex..
a lil cold there..
cuz of e strong wind..
but sum how we overcame it lox..
heex..
was relunctant 2 let him go..
i jux missed him alot lox..
after so many daes..
jux felt so comfy n nice 2 b bak in his arms agn..
hEex..
baka~

hmmx..
basically nth much happ la..
jux tat it feels more like how we used 2 b liaox..
heex..
but happier..
cuz we'd got 2 noe more bout each other thru it mahx..
kekex..
*blushed*

anw..
was tryin 2 change my wallpaper 2 our pic..
but my comp seems 2 anti us..
all pics like me or him or my frenx de all wil appear..
our pic jux die die dun wanna appear..
tootx lox..
wth..
stil dunno wats e prob wit it..
but die die wil make it appear there..
heex..

wo zou lerx..
wan an~~
*chao xiang baka*

in reply 2 his blog

2004-12-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

i'd expected u 2 say it IN ur blog..
i noe u'll b jealous..
but did u even call 2 check if i'm alrite?..
no u din..
n since u said u wanna sTuDy at home..
den y shld i ask u out?..
i wun b so stupid 2 start a fight wit u..

so u tink tats e way i wan it?..
u noe how much i wish it was u acc me?..
no u dUn..
yes i'm at fault too..
4 not even callin u 2 ask..
but at tat time..
i jux feel like coolin down..
n they're jux tryin 2 cheer me up lox..
u'll nv noe how it feels like 2 b alone at home in TAT mood lox..

as 4 e part where u dunno wad wen wrong..
how about sumting like..
i aIn like u..
i aIn e centre of attn among my frenx..
i dUn hav frenx as close 2 me like ming yuan n peeps wit U..
i dUn hav close frenx hu'll ask me out jux 2 chill out like UR peeps on weekends or wad..
i dUn hav any cLoSe fReNx hu'll stay so close 2 me as time pass..
i dUn..
n U'll nv understand it..
n of cuz..
I dUn understand how it feels like 2 hav a gatherin wit cLoSe fReNx jux 2 catch up on each other's lives..
i DuN understand how it feels like 2 n e 'centre of attn' of tat gatherin..
no i DuN..
i was known as a lOnE-RaNgEr since young..
i dUn hav frenx hu'll b always ard me like UR frenx do..
i dUn hav any particular fren hu's stil so close 2 me like u n jq..
no i dun..
n i'd seldom got along well wit gals in my pri sch or sec sch..
so i tend 2 get along beta wit guys..
guess i'm used 2 it..
i'm tryin 2 change it..
4 U..
but u jux dun seem 2 notice it..
yes i'm lonely..
yes i need lotsa attn fr U my BF..
n yes..
i need 2 feel secured..
cuz I'M ALONE..
i guess most of u wun b able 2 understand how its like 2 life like me..
or even nOnE wil..

as 4 tis sentence..
'Maybe i should let you experience it once..'
hah..
u'll NV understand how i felt lox..
n fr jux tat sentence..
i cud jux c so clearly u're sum1 hu cun really 'ren shou yi qie' de lox..

i admit i was in da wrong 2 hang up on u..
but i jux dunno wtf 2 say bout it any more..
n tats wen i'm brokin down n do not wish 2 hear any more tings fr u..
how u wanna tink if it..
its up 2 u lerx..
u go tink bahx..
i'll go do sum soul-searchin too..

so if U feel tat u cun live ur life wit me tis way..
den so b it..
i dun need u 2 pity me n all..

i dUn need u peeps 2 befren me out of pitiness..
no i dUn..
i'm UsEd 2 it..
n i can stil sUrViVe tis way..

wo zou lerx..

none

2004-12-20T10:13:00.000+08:00

hmmx..
aft 'quarrellin' wit bao bei ydae afternoon..
went home str fr godma's hs..
den mum was surprised 2 c me home so early..
saw her out wit daddy too..
(daddy's goin out 2 work..
mum's goin 2 play mahjong..)
so she told me 2 hav dinner by myself n all lox..
den gotta help her rec e replay of 'hong xing da jiang'..
tot it starts at bout 2.30..
so camped in front of e tv..
den saw e ad sayin it starts at 3.30..
so went online..
den saw qing ren there..
so grumbled 2 her a lil..
she managed 2 make me cool down 2 tink oto..
heex..
*thx qing ren*

den saw francis online..
cuz was doin my bloggy mahx..
so asked him bout it..
den jux nice he's alone at home..
den i oto gotta take care of dinner myself..
so decided 2 meet him 4 dinner at cwp..
shun bian ask him bout my bloggy de html oto..
heex..
*thx daerie*
supposed 2 meet him at 5.30..
but reached there early..
so went over 2 77th street..
shun bian go c e specs oto..
den saw jia wei there..
so asked him 2 join us..
den we bot e same specs..
planned 2 wear e same specs down 2 club 2dae..
kekex..
so we went 2 eat at long john..
but he had dinner liaox..
so he jux sit there lox..
den he went off at bout 6.30..
sayin late le wanna go home rest..
*question mark lei..*
so he went off..
cuz its dinner time..
so lots of ppl waitin 4 seats..
so we went down 2 e basement de fountain there 2 tok bout e bloggy de code tings..
unexpectedly din take too long..
den he say selina's bdae cumin liaox..
so went 2 look 4 her bdae present at kiddy's palace..
bot a cow de pooh bear 4 her..
shared it wit francis..
cuz its a lil ex..
den happen 2 c a chi hua hua de plushie there..
find it cute..
so din bear 2 put it bak..
den saw more doggies de plushies in another corner..
so he went over 2 dig..
den let him kio another 1 chi hua hua..
heex..
he oto like it alot..
so he bot it too..
so means we both hav 1 each..
den wen i'd reached home..
jux sui bian placed it on me bed..
den jux nice my phone is jux lyin bside it..
den my sis came home n saw it..
den asked..
'wen did u employ a dog 2 look aft ur phone de ar?.. afraid tat it mite get stolen ar?"..
lolx..

den while i was online..
da zhu came 2 tok 2 me..
ah gong oto..
beng beng too..
2 check if i'm fine..
n oto 2 cool me down..
heex..

qing ren..
thx 4 listenin 2 me grumble..
thx 4 coolin me down n tink logically too..
heex..
*huggiex*

ah gong..
heex..
thx 4 all those advise worx..
kekex..

da zhu..
thx too worx..
muz take care too arx..

francis..
heex..
thx 4 helpin out my blog ar..
kekex..

beng beng..
thx 4 carin too worx..
kekex..
muz take care ar..

wo zou lerx..
*miz baka*

so damn fukin dIsApPoInTeD..

2004-12-19T14:34:00.000+08:00

fuk lox..
idiot..
if he can make himself wake up on time 2 meet his FRENX..
den y cun he make himself wake up on time 2 meet ME?..
fuk lox..
tis shows how damn fukin impt am i 2 him..
shit lox..
told me he wanna study at home 2dae den dun wanna meet..
if he really wanna study
den ask his fren go his fukin hs 4 wad sia
he jolly well noe wit his frenx ard he cun study de lox
fuk sia
wats e damn logic?
u tell me la
its not logical lox
tis shows how bloddy much i means 2 u n how much u wanna meet me lox
PISSED OFF

he's stil mine~ kekex..

2004-12-15T01:50:00.000+08:00

ehx..
din blog 4 e past few daes..
cuz was kinda busy carryin out my ‘secret mission’..
kekex..
dun ask me wad..
oredy said it’s a secret mission liaox..
unless u’d seen me doin it in clubbie or wad lox..
kekex..

anw..
dun worry bout us peeps..
we’re oki lerx..
kekex..
finally tings begin 2 clear up..
kekex..

so..
on fri..
wad happ arx?..
i dun really rem lei..

eRmX..
heh..
jux rem wad happ on sat..
went 2 sentosa wit him..
it was 2 celebrate he’s fren’s bdae..
tink he’s called bryce..
yup..
*happi bdae bryce*
had fun sittin ard watchin them play lox..
den rain 4 awhile..
so was takin shelter at 7-11 there at palawan beach..
den aft e few games..
den bao bei acc me..
so we went swimmin 4 awhile..
den got up..
did sum sand castles on e sand while he play soccer wit his frenx..
den 1 kuku stepped on it lox..
sianx..
n its guofeng..
tootx lox..
it was a pop-up ‘i love u’ lox..
den he ruined e whole ting wit 2 steps..
*sobx*
den its bao bei’s fault too..
cuz wanted him 2 take a pic of it 1st..
b4 we take our own pic..
but he dun wan lox..
die die oto wanna take our pic 1st..
so..
its gone lox..
wit guofeng’s works..
lolx..
but he told me he remembered how it looked like..
dunno leix..
jux noe had fun wit him..
n it was sweet too..
kekex..
*huggiex bao bei*

den acc him 2 cck..
cuz he had his spac2go de annual dinner..
but was late..
cuz sumting happ..
they threw 1 of their frenx into 2 water..
n stripped him naked..
=x
den he was pissed off lox..
so he threw sand all over us..
n almost broke into a fight..
lucky din..
den we went separate ways..
means he was alone..
den went over 2 siloso beach there 2 bathe..
cuz palawan there too many ppl liaox..
so wasted a lot of time lox..
cuz spent bout 30mins walkin fr 1 beach 2 another..
-.-“
den went home str aft sendin bao bei there..
cuz was really tired liaox..
den had cup noodles 4 dinner..

den on sun..
stayed home all day..
cuz gotta pack up e last tings in my room 2 prepare 4 sch..
den started on my secret mission..
kekex..
hope 2 finish it by x’mas..
if not latest by our 3rd mth ann..

mon sux..
cuz I’d 4gotten bout e most impt meetin on earth..
its our own welfare meetin..
sianx lox..
haix..
its all my fault..
*sorry every1 of welfare*
1st time skippin my meetin..
sux me..

den 2dae..
had a long break fr 8.30-10..
jux wastin time..
cuz too early liaox..
dunno where 2 go..
lolx..
so cont doin my secret mission..
but decided 2 rest 4 e last 30mins of e break..
cuz wasn’t feelin very well..
so took a nap..
but luckily made me feel beta..
den went 2 class le..

den had my teddy biscuit 4 lunch..
stick ard sac 2 watch them play carom as usual..
den went 4 class at 1..
met bao bei at 4..
den went 2 eat at fc4..
den went 2 his hs nua abit..
den went home le..
den jux came bak fr suntec..
went 2 marche 4 dinner..
din eat much..
cuz dun really hav any appetite..
was jux desperate 4 water..
so got daddy 2 buy me a 1litre of peel fresh apple juice..
*my fav*
kekex..

qing ren..
hmmx..
take care worx..
anyting jux cum find me k..
rem..
i’m jux a call away..
kekex..
*huggiex*

da zhu..
sch jux started worx..
den u oredy sick liaox..
how can worx..
mux take care of urself oki..
*hugx*

bao bei..
kekex..
hmmx..
dunno lei..
jux glad 2 stil hav u..
kekex..
^.^
guess no words can describe my happiness now?..
u shud feel it too..
so dun tink i need 2 type too much on it lox..
kekex..

anw..
rest earlier 2nit k..
dun tire urself out..
ppl wil xin tong de lox..
*muackx n huggiex*

wo zou lerx..
*mix bao bei*
*bao bao*

heartbroken

2004-12-09T22:55:00.000+08:00

guess..
nobody's gonna understand how i feel bahx..
though i may appear happi 2day..
its bo bianx de lox..
gotta entertain e kids..
den tink its cuz i wasnt really payin attn 2 them bahx..
tats y wasnt pissed off by them no matter wad them did..
btw..
it was an event organized by jason..
4 an orphanage..
wit bout 60 kids..
4 them 2 so-called clelbrate christmas lox..
cuz its called e 'christmas joy' mahx..
so reached sch at 8.20..
cuz gotta get ready 4 e briefin..
den tok cock awhile..
den e kids arrived at bout 10 lidat..
den we started off we sum interaction wit e kids we're in charge 4..
den jason proceeded wit e mass game..
blow wind blow..
n e squirrel hunter n earthquake game..
den lunch..
den our station games..
got abit off corked up..
den din hav enuff time..
so cancelled e sing-a-long session..
cuz they're leavin at bout 3..
den skipped 2 e refreshments str away aft tat..
den gave away sum presents 2 them..
den sent them off le..
den had our debriefin..
den faster rushed home le..
cuz initially promised mum wil b home by 4..
but e tingy ended late..
so called home aft e kids r gone..
den told her wil b bak by 5..
but was stil late..
lolx..
cuz onli left sch at bout 4.40..
so was late 4 home 4 20mins..
den was damn hungry..
so bot a bread home..
den saw mum havin sum curry of e leftovers ydae..
den changed..
den eat my mian bao..
den baby cum askin 4 'mian bao mian bao' fr me..
lolx..
den she jux sat on me lox..
sayin 'chor chor'..
(means sit down la..
cuz we all teach her 2 sit down wen she wanna eat..)
den she jux cun make up her mind whether she wanna stand or sit..
so she's like crushin my stomach lox..
cuz jux nice she's sittin on my stomach accordin 2 e way i sit lox..
den almost made me vomit wad i'd eaten..
lolx..

den..
onli rec he's sms aft i'd reached home..
sianx lox..
been hopin 2 c he's sms like at bout 2 or 3 lidat?..
cuz he slept at 5 last nit..
so din expect him 2 wake up early..
but wad made me more sad is tat..
he told me he was awake at bout 11+..
n he took so damn long 2 sms me..
wtf..
but at least..
he replied by callin bak..
at least feels more shiok la..
but at tat time..
jux refuse 2 tok 2 him lox..
lolx..
but e painful part cums in..
unexpected..
as i jux feel tat i got nth 2 say 2 him..
so i jux kept quiet all e way..
den previously..
he was sayin tat he called me cuz jux wanna hear my voice..
but i was stil pissed lox..
so jux replied tat i got nth 2 say 2 him..
so he ask me tok oto no use..
cuz i dunno wad 2 say 2 him..
so jux kept quiet lox..
den aft bout dunno how long..
i jux go wei-in 4 bout a min lox..
den gave up..
cuz he jux fell aslp lidat lox..
wtf..

den e worst part is..
he din call bak aft he woke up lox..
pissed off..
until wen i call his hp..
den realised he's awake oredy..
tats wad made me so damn angry lox..
den he din even apologise..

den jux now..
e ting tat made me heartbroken was tat..
he told me he cun go help out in da countdowin event wit us he promised me earlier on le..
cuz he gotta work..
n e worst ting is..
he says its goona last til past midnight..
shit lox..
its my bdae..
n i was like hopin my bf cuz like spend it wit me lox..
its like..
its a very special moment lox..
i jux wanna..
spend e 1st sec n min wit e 1 i loved n he hu loved me lox..
lidat oto cannot mehx..
n it doesnt cum all e time de lox..
very wtf lox..
aiya..
dun even noe if u all understand how i feel anot..
mb 2 u all..
its jux another norm occasion nia..
bnut 2 me..
its not lox..
tats my biggest wish lox..
my biggest bdae wish toox..
tats wad i'd wished 4 durin my last bdae celebration..
den aft tinkin so much bout it..
its jux gone lox..
gone..
tings wun b e same w/o him lox..
haix..
i noe work is impt..
but..
haiya..
i oto dunno la..
since he she de..
den i got nth much 2 say lerx..
since tings r gonna turn out tat way..
den i guess there's nth much i can look 4ward 2 le bahx..
haix..
he had a happi bdae wit me..
but..
i'm not goin 2 hav a happier bdae wit him lox..
haix..
its not fair lox..
fuk la..
haix..
k la..
i noe i'm e 1 in fault here..
but..
u oto cun blame me de wad..
its mY bDaE lox..
kkx..
guess u all r tired of me makin a big fuss bout it le la..
told u all le..
u all wun understand de la..

wo zou lerx..
xiang ta la..
humpt..

am i stil his xin fu?..

2004-12-08T23:53:00.000+08:00

haix..
sorry peeps..
din update 4 e past few daes cuz dun really hav e mood 2 bahx..
but anw..
we had a club chalet fr sun-tue..
n e bbq nite was on sun..
so got him 2 go down 2 join us at costa sand..
den jq joined him too..
den intro him 2 my ‘family’ in club..
den got him 2 settle down there..
den played dai dee..
n all tat lox..
den went home at bout 10..
he sent me home..
den bumped into my sis at e staris there..
den lidat lox..
i oto lan lan..

haix..
i oto dunnox?..
jux tat..
am i stil his xin fu?..
mb it’s a yes bahx..
or jux tat..
he jux dun wanna meet me so often..
jux mademe start 2 really tink bahx..
tat..
our honeymoon period is over le..
n he..
jux dun get wad i meant..
he asked me wd happ..
i told him le ar..
but he jux dun understand lox..
haix..
jux tat..
he’s..
no longer mine n all mine..
his empty time slots r no longer filled wit bao bei n more bao bei..
i noe he’s busy wit club tings..
but..
i jux dun like him 2 like..
plan wad 2 do n where 2 go aFtEr sendin me off while i’m stil physically wit him lox..
n..
i hate 2 go home all by myself esp wen i’d met him b4 goin home..
in pain..
n in unhappiness..
jux made me feel so..
sad..
so toopid..
n so..
silly..
havin a bf n feel like i’m not havin 1..
its not as if we’d been meetin each other everydae..
its not lox..
haix..
if he wanna meet his frenx..
can de lox..
but not eVeRyDaY de wad..
its oki 2 meet bout 2 or 3 times a week..
4 bout 2 or 3 hours 4 a game of bb or jux 2 walk ard or wad..
but not eVeRyDaY 4 e whole day or e whole nite de lox..
is too much le..
if tats wad he wanted..
he ought 2 b beta off stayin single la..
pissed off lox..
he’s like..
seein more of his frenx den me tis sO-cAlLeD bao bei of his lox..
haix..
din even offer 2 send me home on mon..
wen i left e chalet at 10..
all by myself..
n 2day..
din even bother 2 tell me he’s not acc me home til e damn last min wen I’m boarding e damn train..
so its he’s bUdDiEs r more impt dan me..
fine lox..
din even bothered 2 chase..
din even bothered 2 try 2 coax me 2 at least listen 2 him..
din even bothered 2 try 2 call til i pick up his call..
din even..
bothered 2 sms me..
am stil waitin 4 him 2 sms me or call me..
but stil..
no lox..
haix..
or mb..
shudnt even had given him any chance..
den i wun b so tong ku lerx..
jux let him hurt me deeper n deeper each time..
haix..

i really dunox..
haix..
its like..
we wun b havin much time 2 meet each other wen sch starts le..
den now he stil lidat..
dun understand lox..
dunno wtf he wan..
dunno wtf is happenin..
dunno wtf..
haix..
kill me..
sumbody jux kill me la..
or mb 2ml i’ll get buang by car on da way 2 sch..
aiya..
but cannot..
cuz if 2ml buang b4 jason’s event..
den he short of 1 gl..
cannot cannot..
ehx..
but nvm..
can buang aft he’s event de..
yup..
tats beta la..
ehx..
but stil cun..
gotta go visit my godma 1st..
cuz godpa haven been feelin well..
so muz go visit them 1st den i can buang..
haiya..
i oto dun care la..
die beta la..

wo zou lerx..
xiang ta ye mei you yong..
ta hui xiang wo mahx..
haix..

unwell

2004-12-07T00:53:00.000+08:00

haix..
ya la ya la..
everyting oto my fault de la..
wth lox..
been feelin giddy n havin headache since mornin le..
den was hopin 2 meet him..
jux wan him 2 acc me..
lidat oto cannot..
wth..
say wad i jux wanna hav him physically..
but..
i'm not feelin well lox..
of cuz i wud wan him 2 acc me de ma..
den even wen i'm ok..
wan him 2 acc me oto cannot mehx..
i miz him oto cannot mehx..
sianx lox..
muz i hav a reason 2 wanna meet him?..
no lox..
haix..
sumtimes jux feel tat we jux dun suit each other..
haix..
i cud hav done tat long ago lox..
but..
i din wanna lox..
cuz i dun wanna lose him..
but..
its gettin tougher..
i dunnox..
haix..
he jux giv me a feelin tat he dun wanna meet me n all..
if not y everytime muz i b e 1 hu called or sms him 1st de..
if not..
y muz he spend almost e whole dae wit his so-called buddies n can even dun ans my call n all de..
i'm not sayin he cun go meet his buddies or wad..
jux tat..
1 whole dae..
is kinda too much lox..
sum more call him oto dun wanna ans..
sms him oto dun wanna reply..
its like.. wth lox..
sianx..
i dun like it lox..
he can like..
always meet them up de..
but not tAt long la..
can go play a few hours of bb..
but not e wHoLe dae wad..
its..
fuk lox..
he can even..
jux stay at home 2 do nth dan 2 meet me..
haix..
jux dun understand lox..
haix..
tink he'd beta stay single la..
dun wud hai me n all..
den dun havta hav him quarrelin wit his father n all..
wadever la..
haix..
i dunno le la..
dun care le la..
everyting oto my fault..
mb..
i'm beta off..
dead..

wo zou lerx..
*hen xiang ta*
but..
wad e use..
he dun even cArE..
*gOnEx*

honey worx..

2004-12-04T01:40:00.001+08:00

sianx..
pissed off..
my fault agn la..
everyting oto my fault de la..
oredy rushin 2 use e bloody internet b4 she does le..
den stil kena blamed tat always wanna use wen she’s usin..
like my fault lox..
i oto wanna use b4 she comes home de ma..
but nobody at home 2 look aft my niece den I cun use..
oto my fault..
hell lox..
fuk man..
not my fault oto mah..
ask her go change 2 broadband she dun wan..
heck care..
not my fault wad..
bleahx..

anw..
din update ydae cuz got no time 2..
as usual was rushed by my GOOD sis 2 use e internet lox..
heck care..
i oto lan lan..

so..
went 2 meet kristie at clementi 2 go buy e stuffs 4 e chalet..
den wen shoppin at ntuc..
den waited 4 jia wei 2 reach..
he was damn late lox..
we’re meetin at 11.30..
but he onli reached at 12..
lolx..
had oredy finished buyin by den..
so went 2 kio e styrofoam box fr ntuc..
den wait 4 him outside..
asked him 2 look aft e tings there while we go shop 4 her volleyball..
den bot ju hua cha 4 bao bei n myself..
den wen bak 2 look 4 him..
cuz cun find our ball there..
den acc them 2 eat b4 goin bak 2 sch..

stayed in club 4 awhile..
den went over 2 sac foyer 2 help cheng jin wit his banner paintin..
lolx..
had fun there..
cuz we’re like paintin each other n all..
lolx..
den cj bcame my palet..
lolx..
he was so so colorful lox..
lolx..
cuz he was e 1 hu got most of e paint..
n wit most of e color too..
lolx..
wit all e color we’d tried 2 mix..
lolx..

den met bao bei 2 go home at bout 5.30..
went 2 cwp wit irene(fr spac2go de.. not qing ren hor..) n kang ming..
acc them 2 go play pool..
den bao bei sent me home at bout 7.30..
cuz gotta reach home early..
mum got her belly dance class mahx..

4 2day..
its our 2nd mth le..
heex..
but tat baka..
4got all bout 2dae..
stil made me angry last nit..
its like..
its kinda impt 2 me wit e dates n all lox..
but he jux dun seem 2 hav notice it..
tat baka..
til we’re on our way home den he ask me wats e special occasion..
-.-“

anw..
was sopposed 2 meet bao bei at 2 at yishun mrt stn de..
but tat baka was late 4 bout 20mins..
k..
he improved..
BUT..
there’s stil room 4 improvement lox..
lolx..
den we went 2 ps..
bot sum stuffs fr spotlight..
den watched the incredibles..
kekex..
but a lil sianx..
cuz kena e 1st row..
lolx..
damn front lox..
guess our neck’s stil achin fr it..
lolx..
den bao bei said it was he’s 1st time sittin so near 2 e screen..
lolx..
anw..
tat was a nice show..
heex..
oh ya..
took neoprint wit bao bei b4 e show..
heex..
i dragged him 2 it de..
hmmx..
dunno lei..
dunno whether u all tink its nice or not..
but 1 pic sux 2 e core man..
bao bei din even try 2 beautify it..
lolx..

bao bei..
u arx..
dunno is u pretend de or wad lox..
but it’d really made me very sianx lox..
haix..
dunno lei..
haix..

anw..
hoped u’d enjoyed urself..
cuz i did..
so guess u too?..
but mux stil ask u..
2 cfm ma..
baka..
anw..
thx 4 helpin me update worx..
kekex..
cuz comp bua stun wit me agn..
lolx..
go slp le..
gonna b a long dae 2ml..
kekex..
wan an bao bei..
*muackx n huggiex + massage*
guess ur neck’s stil kinda stiff fr e show?..
kekex..

wo zou lerx..
*xiang baka*
*muackx*

he's bak.. but..

2004-12-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

i dunnox..
haix..
guess i'd over did it?..
was jux bein excited over his return..
really miz him alot mahx..
but..
dunnox..
mb i tink too much or wad..
but..
he sound kinda annoyed wen i called him e 2nd time?..
or was he tired?..
i dunno..
he's tone jux make me dun wanna call him agn..
not dun wan la..
but..
its like..
he refuse 2 tok 2 me or wad?..
i dunnox..
mb he's jux too tired?..
or mb..
he jux dun..
wanna..
tok 2 me?..
he's voice..
jux stopped me fr callin him agn..
cuz i noe..
i'll jux make myself feel more xin ku if i did..
sure i cun stop smilin wen i heard he's voice..
but..
he jux din sound too happi bout it?..
he's like rushin me 2 hang up..
dunno y..
heard a gal's voice at his background too..
haix..
been online 4 sumtime le..
but he dun seem 2 wanna tok 2 me..
din even typed any msg 2 me..
haix..
i dunnox..
hope i really tink too much le bahx..
dun feel like continuin le..
jux wanna stop myself fr cryin 1st..

wo zou lerx..
wan an..
*hen xiang ta..*
*heartbroken*

love sick

2004-11-30T23:03:00.000+08:00

jux another entry 4 bao bei..
haix..
sianx..
bao bei wil onli b bak 2ml nite..
sianx..
cun wait 2 c him..
cun wait 2 hav him bak by my side agn..
sianx..
haix..
miz him alot..
alot alot..
aRgHx..
tmd..
chao xiang ni lox..
bAkA..
qi si wo le la..
humpt..
cun even hear ur voice..
bAkA..
haix..
aRgHx..
humpt..
baka baka baka baka baka baka baka baka baka baka
humpt..
ppl miiz u alot la..
4daes 3nites lei..
so long..
haix..
can onli sms u..
wun even get e reply..
sianx..

2ml u'll b bak le..
dunno if u'll call me once u'd touched our land..
or mb u'll call home 1st den call me..
cuz u noe we'll tok longer de mah..
kekex..
cuz wait 2 chat wit u til u fall aslp while we're stil on da phone..
cun wait 2 hear u bury my voice wit all e tings tat u wanna share wit me tat'd happ there..
cun wait 2 hear u add on..
'too bad u wasnt here wit me..
if not sure very fun de..'
rite?..
kekex..
cfm de lox..
cuz u'll always say tat wen u had fun wen i'm not ard..
kekex..

hmmx..
tink i beta stop here le..
cuz e few entries wen u're not ard..
shud b alot 4 u 2 read liaox..
so i'll keep tis short..
so u can faster call me 2 chat 2ml nite..
kekex..
bleahx..
cuz u'll surely cun online 2 read my blog 1st den u'll go do ur tings de lox..
rite?.. baka..

n oto..
goin 2 chio naruto liaox..
cuz was too busy n tired tidyin..
den nv watch..
so mux watch all 2nite..
den 2ml nite can zuan xing chat wit u on phone..
kekex..
go liaox..

wo zou lerx..
*chao xiang bao bei*
*MUACKX n HUGGIEX*

sianx ½ (II)

2004-11-30T01:01:00.000+08:00

k so where did i stop jux now?..
hmmx..
was sayin i went 2 jay's concert den reached home quite late..
ya lox..
was so late cuz tat sis of mine..
br me 2 go take dunno wad bus down 2 bugis den change bus there..
but by e time we'd reached bugis..
we den realised tat e last bus of e bus we takin is oredy gone..
so decided 2 share cab home wit her frenx..
but caught bus 851 to yishun while callin 2 book a cabbie..
got off at e bus stop at khatib stn..
where we took a cabbie home fr there..
so i jux went str 2 slp e moment i reached home..

on sat..
met bao bei in da aftnn..
had lunch in his hs..
den we left 4 orchard le..
cuz he meetin mr mori..
2 collect e tripod n flash he'd borrowed fr him 4 e cruise..
den went 2 shop 4 his polo t n socks..
den went bak 2 his hs..
took a nap while he played ard wit his cam n e tripod..
tink he took a pic of our noeprint wit it..
its up in our friendsters..
hehx..

was a lil sad tat time..
cuz caused him 2 quarrel wit his father..
sianx..
was cryin behind him..
but was discovered by him..
was touched n shocked by wad he'd said 2 me..
'sha gua.. dun tink too much la.. jux 2 let u noe.. i'd nv regret..'
tat baka..
really caught me by surprised wit those words fr him lox..
den made me ended up cryin harder..
lolx..
aft tat den i fell aslp le..
aft tat helped him 2 fold his clothes neatly..
den left 4 kallang le..
(he's meetin jq 2 go watch jay's concert..)

hmmx..
can say he was forced 2 de?..
how bout he dun like jay?..
jux bot e 148 bucks de tix 2 acc jq watch..
sianx ½ rite..
*cold lox*
so tried 2 get him excited while on e way there..
wit e flute n piano n all..
but aft tat all..
jux managed 2 get him a lil excited nia..
sianx ½..
den got him 2 br his cam wit him..
2 help me take photographs of jay..
kekex..
butden..
4got cun br those stuffs in..
but was oredy on e way there liaox..
so sianx ½ lox..

anw..
acc bao bei 2 kallang stn..
den i went home le..
he reached home damn late..
tink tat was bout 2.30..
was a lil pissed off..
cuz was damn worried tat he mite not get enuff slp..
but there's nth i can do lox..
haix..

den on sun..
woke up early 2 meet bao bei..
tat baka..
was late 4 more dan ½hr as usual agn..
den he took cabbie fr his hs..
while i met him outside northpoint there..
bot my shoebag along wit me..
but 4got all bout his lanyard..
but lucky he's fren hav extra de..
if not sure damn guilty 1..
hu ask me stm..
bo bianx..

walked him 2 e assemblin area..
but saw you wei n zc on e way bak 2 stn..
den sat down 2 hav breakfast wit them..
was stil early..
so walked wit them bak 2 e assemblin area..
intro bao bei 2 yw n zc..
den acc bao bei a lil longer..
til bout 11 lidat..
den he acc me 2 e stn..
cuz meetin kristie they all at newton stn 4 e mile meets tingy..

saw quite a num of ppl there..
got kristie..
han qiqi..
xm..
yu hong..
edric..
xiang wei..
meifang..
daryl..
geraldine..
ziqing..
den me..
jason was later dan me..
den chris..
jux woke up wen we called him.
n rou wei..
tink she was late too..
den came over 2 smu 2 meet us..

was rainin like donkey..
den everyting was postponed..
tink e 1st race started at bout 4..
n so on..
den was basically doin nth much bahx..
except cheerin 4 e ppl runnin..
den at bout 4.30 lidat..
went over 2 e car porch 2 fetch e disabled participants 2 e stadium..
really respect them alot siax..
4 their courage..
den e whole ting ended at bout 6+..
oh ya..
kio 1 shirt 4 bao bei too..
kekex..
den went 2 had dinner at newton circus wit them..
left 4 home aft tat..
cuz was tired le..
den oto need 2 cum bak 2 look aft my niece oto..
so slept early..
den din update..

so 4 2day..
woke up at bout 9.30..
came online awhile..
updated 4 awhile..
den went 2 tidy up a lil..
den had lunch..
den took a lil nap..
den cont tidyin..
den bathe..
den went 2 cwp 4 dinner..
den went 2 watch the incredibles jux now..
hmmx..
din really catch most of e show..
1st was late 4 it..
den was continiously interupted by my niece..
so wasnt really payin attn 2 it..
anw..
hopin 2 go watch it wit bao bei wen he's bak fr e cruise..
kekex..
sianx..
been tinkin of him all e time..
miz him alot lox..
life w/o him ard is kinda..
dull?..
tink u all can oto c it bahx..
those wen bao bei's not ard..
i'd jux roughly say them out..
unlike wen i'm wit bao bei..
got lotsa tings 2 type..
sianx lox..
haix..

bao bei..
as promised..
updated..
jux 4 u..
kekex..

though i noe u're not here..
but guess ur heart is always wit me bahx..
kekex..
anw..
how u doin there?..
stil used 2 everyting?..
enjoyed urself?..
did u hav enuff rest anot?..
or u're jux too busyin playin..
den stayed up late..
den woke up early n all tat..
den..
miz me mah?..
kekex..

dunno lei..
haix..
a lil regret lettin u go..
its worst dan wen u're in camp..
at least stil can hear ur voice..
but wen u're overseas..
cun even hear ur voice lox..
was wonderin..
did u call home?..
2 at least tell them u're safe n sound..
den tot..
if u did..
den y u din call me..
or mb was jux hopin 2 get a call fr u or wad..
sianx..
haix..
was a lil restless lox..
sianx..

chao xiang ni zhe baka..
cun wait 4 u 2 return on wed nite..
but cun go fetch u..
sianx ½..
but stil cun wait 2 hear my phone ringin wit ur ringtone..
cuz guess e 1st few ppl u'll call is me?..
kekex..
cun wait 2 chat wit u..
hear u fillin me wit all those u'd done durin e 4 daes 3 nites..
kekex..
cun wait 2 c u show me e photos u'd taken n all..
though i wun b interested in them most of e time..
but i jux wanna hear ur voice lox..
kekex..
bleahx..
k la..
tink i beta stop le..
gotta conti tidyin tings up 2ml..
wan an bao bei..
miz u alot alot alot..
*MUACKX n HUGGIEX*

wo zou lerx..
*chao xiang baka*
*MUACKX*

sianx ½ (I)

2004-11-29T09:54:00.000+08:00

din blog ydae..
den jux realised 1 of my posts wasnt saved in my acc..
sianx ½..
tat was e entry i blogged 4 bao bei b4 he leave 4 e cruise de..
dunno stil can rem wad i'd blogged in tat entry anot..
sianx lox..
i tink if bao bei saw tis he'll oto sianx..
lolx..
anw..
letme try 2 refresh here k..

hmmx..
so..
tat was a.. sat?..
yup..
n i was sayin..
tat i din blog on fri cuz was too tired fr jay's concert..
so went 2 bed almost immediately i reached home..
w/o bathin..
lolx..
bleahx..
n tat it was oredy 1.30am wen i'd jux finished bathin on sat..
was oto damn pissed off cuz of my mum..
cuz was kinda tired n haven recover fr my fri nite's tireness yet..
so was actually plannin 2 rest early..
cuz gotta wake up early 2 acc bao bei 2 harbourfront on sun mornin..
so was pissed off wen she asked me 2 do tis do tat e moment i reached home..
den she kept goin ai li tis ai li tat..
den dunno say wad if dun hav my tings there den jux tell her..
i wanna tell her de lox..
can onli c 2 pieces of my belongings there..
damn pissed off lo..
den stil say wad i nv go work br money home stil dare 2 tok bak 2 her..
wtf lox..
tat time initally is hu tell me no need go work..
as if our family no money 2 gimme lidat..
den now shoot her own words bak at me..
wth lox..

n hor..
sumting 2 apologise 2 bao bei..
is tat..
guess cuz of my mum i was a lil attitude 2 him lox..
sorry wor bao bei..
din meant 2 de..
oredy tried 2 control liaox..
but cuz of ur keep 'deng yi xia ar' or jux suddenly tok 2 sum1 else wit u there..
so was a lil pissed off lox..

anw..
on fri..
met bao bei in da afternoon..
cuz he gotta help out at his mum's stall..
so met him aft lunch hour..
den went 2 his house 2 nua..
din watch naruto..
cuz my sole purpose is 2 acc him..
so jux acc him lox..
til bout 6 lidat..
den we left his hs..
where he acc me 2 lavender mrt stn 2 meet my sis..
den we'll take cabbie 2 e indoor stadium wit her frenx..
(we're goin 2 jay's concert rem?..)
yup..
we entered fr e south entrance..
as we got e 98 bucks tix..
so our seats fr facin e corner of e stage de..
but 1 ting we're pissed off is tat..
y of all corners..
were our view partly blocked by 2 thick bundles of wires hangin fr mid-air lox..
sianx ½..
a lil demoralised by it lox..
lolx..

but stil..
his show is damn nice..
but tis time e stereo ain tat good..
he performed flute..
even bot his personal piano wit him..
pink color de..
kekex..
den encored 3 times..
sianx ½..
almost lost my voice..
lolx..

sianx..
gtg liaox..
update agn 2nite..
ps arx..
wo zou lerx..
*miz bao bei alot*

another honey dae..

2004-11-26T00:57:00.000+08:00

hmmx..
din update ydae cuz nth much happ bahx..
din meet bao bei..
was at home all dae..
attempted 2 tidy up my room..
den babysit my niece..
n had mee siam 4 lunch n dinner..
(mum cooked it specially 4 me de..
cuz told her i got a cravin 4 it..
so she cooked 4 me lox..
cuz nan de i stay at homw whole dae..
lolx..)
so its nth much la..
jux noe missed bao bei alot..
den tat baka..
din reply me 4 almost e whole dae..
wait til i call him den he say he typin halfway..
always lidat de lox..
nv call him den he nv reply..
call him le den say he typin halfway..
everytime lidat de lei..
really baka lox..
den lidat lox..

den asked bao bei 2 help me check results..
cuz my comp bua stun wit me..
den got lotsa error..
den cun log in..
so got bao bei 2 check 4 me..
den..
hehex..
i passed all..
tyco 1..
cuz i din really study..
onli looked 4 last min help b4 e paper..
lolx..
so..
kekex..
passed all..
had 2 Ds..
1 C..
den e rest all C+..
lolx..
tyco..

den 2day..
was supposed 2 go meet him once i wake up..
but he called 2 say he need 2 go help out at he's mum's stall..
den can onli meet me at bout 1.30..
den fine lox..
i wait n take my time..
den went 2 hav lunch wit dad n mum n niece at cwp..
den mum brought me 2 hav my back massaged..
so oki lox..
den e massagin takes bout 20mins..
so was a lil late wen i went over 2 meet bao bei..
but tat baka..
later dan me lox..
i rushed..
but reached at 1.45..
but he worst lox..
i wait n wait n wait..
den finally bth den called him..
den he say he drinkin water..
-.-"
fine lox..
drink..
den guess wad time he reached?..
2.40 lox..
tat was 'eArLy'..

den acc him bak 2 change..
cuz we goin 2 watch concert at nus..
wit cheng jin n banny..
cuz hav sum extra time..
so watched a lil of naruto b4 we left..
den tat baka..
watch watch watch..
though he watched b4 le stil wanna watch..
den havta keep chasin him 2 get him prepared..
den was late wen meetin cheng jin..
so took cabbie down 2 clementi mrt stn..
but he was later..
lolx..
den went 2 take 96 at e interchange..
was late..
cuz was supposed 2 reach there at 6..
but until i heard fr mr see..
den i noe e actual tingy starts onli at 7..
lolx..

den e banny..
was freakin late lox..
den hai cheng jin gotta wait 4 him outside..
lolx..
but they got in aft e various speeches..
den kio tio sai..
kena e front seats(even nearer 2 e stage dan us lox)..
lolx..
tyco de lo them..
lolx..

den aft tat..
got interval..
damn lame lox..
40 mins of interval..
any1 heard of tat?..
damn sianx..
sum more e refreshments onli cater 4 e 'invited guests'..
wth..
so due to bao bei's hunger..
so we decided 2 leave..
cuz he really too hungry le..
den wanna spend sumtime wit him b4 he go on cruise oto..
so i jux 'threw' cheng jin n banny there 2 watch finish e concert..
lolx..

saw sum works on sale by e students there..
really quite impressed..
cuz din expect such a high standard of drawin fr them..
was really amazed..
n glad..
tat i'm fr tat pri sch..
kekex..
bleahx..

k..
so we had dinner at clementi..
den rushed over 2 cck..
was hopin 2 take a neoprint there b4 bao bei go 4 cruise..
but wen we reached there..
too late le..
it was closed 4 e dae le..
so decided 2 go home..
den he sent me til my block there..
den i acc him home thru e phone..

bao bei..
hope u'd enjoyed urself 2dae..
hope i din disappoint u wit e performance..
tink i'd enjoyed too..
2 c u enjoyin..
kekex..

heex..
den while havin fn on e way home..
we got a new nick 4 each other..
lolx..
bao bei's nick was 'iris de xin fu'..
lolx..
den mine is 'jasper de xin fu'..
kekex..
kinda..
honey?..
hagax..

hmmx..
was kinda jealous wen i saw her sms in ur phone?..
or mb i jux din expect u 2 save her sms?..
dunnox..
jux din feel good bahx..
tats y was quiet 4 a moment..
was jux tryin 2 convince myself tat is jUx a sms..

hmmx..
dunno wad else 2 sae le?..
cuz am kinda seh now..
very tired liaox..
hehx..
wan an bao bei..
rest early 2nit k..
*mUaCkX n HuGgIeX*

wo zou lerx..
wan an bao bei..
*mUaCkx*

a honey dae..

2004-11-23T23:39:00.000+08:00

heex..
went swimmin wit bao bei 2day..
got tan a lil..
but tink i'm more like red dan tanned..
lolx..

woke up at bout 9 lidat..
so i can get prepared 2 meet bao bei at 9.30..
but saw his sms..
askin 2 meet later..
cuz he needed more rest..
so went bak 2 slp..
lolx..
den later woke up at 11..
den called him..
den decided 2 meet at 11.30..
but i was late..
by 30mins..
cuz was stucked at home 2 help mum clear up sumting 1st..
but tat baka..
later dan me lox..
wen i reached cd hut at 12..
he's stil at home lox..
or rather..
he's jux outside his hs nia..
tats not any beta..
lolx..

aft tat we decided 2 buy our movie ticket 1st..
den we went swimmin..
reached at bout 12.20..
but swam ard..
tink i too long nv go exercise liaox..
is achin all over wit all those laps i'd swam..
lolx..
but we stopped at bout 1.30..
went 2 bathe..
den e baka..
slower dan me lox..
sianx..
gotta wait 4 him outside e washroom 4 bout 5mins lidat..
den he finally came out..
lolx..
but stil..
had lotsa fun wit him lox..
askin him 2 help me apply tannin lotion n all..
den makin fun of he's butt wen he swims..
(he'll always stick his butt above e water wen he swims..
lolx..)
soaked in jaquizzi(or wadever e spellin is) 4 awhile while we rest..
den went bak swimmin..
had e lil race of 5 laps..
but i gave up aft 2 laps..
cuz my fours r achin too much liaox..
so stopped 2 whole tingy..
decided 2 go swmmin more often..
2 work bak my stamina n my muscles..
kekex..

aft tat rushed 2 hav lunch at s11..
den rush over 2 gv 2 catch our movie..
shutter at 2.40..
though was stil late..
but wen we got there..
found sum other kids sittin in our seats..
was a lil pissed off while gettin them movin..
cuz they kept insistin their seat is e 12th seat n on..
but i insisted them 2 double checked it..
n of cuz as expected..
they're sittin in our seat lox..
den e baka..
stil sided wit them though its their fault..
sayin they're stil kids n all..
but tats not e ting tat made me angry lox..
its e fact tat they stil insisted tat their ticket is e 12th seat..
wth lox..
anw by e time tat 'conflict' is over..
e show haven start yet..
so took our time settlin down..
tink e show quite nice bahx..
nv tot it wud b lidat..
kinda diff fr other horror shows..

anw..
its our 1st time swimmin 2gether..
oto is our 1st time went watchin horror movie since we're 2gether..
hmmx..
feels quite honey de lox..
(guess onli we 2 noe y its called 'honey'..
kekex..)

bao bei..
hmmx..
had really enjoyed myself 2dae..
cuz its wit u mahx..
baka..
hoped u'd enjoyed urself too?..
cuz its been quite sum time since we'd spent time wit each other like tis le bahx..
n e feelin..
is honey too..
jux felt so nice n..
xin fu..
kekex..
*muackx*
*^.^*

nx time muz stay in e pool longer k..
den i can sun tan more..
kekex..
but though we din do anyting much 2dae..
had really cherished e times wit u..
n of cuz..
my feelinga 4 u had grown too..
n is stil growin..
heex.. *^.^*

jux wanna say..
i'd really appreciate all e tings u'd done 4 me..
cuz it'd all touched my heart..
n wil always b kept in my mind?..
love u.. ^o^
kekex..
baka..
make ppl shy.. *^.^*

k la..
go rest early k..
u stil need 2 go bak 2 sch 2ml..
tink wil b a long dae 4 u bahx..
so muz hav enuff rest k..
wan an bao bei..
*MuAcKx N hUgGiEx*
xiang ni..

wo zou lerx..
*xiang bao bei*
*bao bao*

stil tired

2004-11-23T01:10:00.000+08:00

stil haven recover fr e camp yet..
stil tired..
cuz was busy acc bao bei 2dae..
so din really had enuff rest last nite..
plus..
i fell aslp halfway thru wen we're on da phone..
*sorry wor bao bei..
really din mean 2 fall aslp de..
had been tryin v hard 2 stay awake..
but stil..
fell aslp unknowingly in e end..
dun angry k..
dui bu qi..
i really wanted badly 2 chat wit u de lox..*

was woken up by bao bei's phone call at 9.30..
den ask me if i stil wanna acc him 2 sch..
den since i'd oredy promised him last nite..
so go lox..
dragged myself outta bed..
den went over 2 his hs 1st..
cuz wanna watch naruto..
kekex..
den waited 4 him 2 prepare..
tink he overslept while i watch naruto..
den he'd onli reached sch at 4.30..
lolx..
cuz he oto din tell me wad time 2 wake him up..
den he oto tired liaox..
so let him slp lox..
den nv go disturb him..

aft tat acc him 2 sch 2 go 2 e apex there 2 look 4 his spac2go ppl there..
n oto 2 help take photos of them..
sianx lox..
apex ends at 5..
but tat baka..
onli reached at 4.30..
-.-"
den aft e tingy..
he hav his breifin bout e ploy 50 tingy there..
den hav e meetin wit 1 of e grp organisin 1 of e events there..

aft tat he acc me 2 cuty hall..
cuz was supposed 2 meet my family there 4 dinner..
had seafood buffet..
at 40 bucks per head..
sianx..
damn ex lox..
sum more i dun really like seafood 1..
den gotta stuff myself wit 40 bucks worth of food..
-.-"
n hor..
e oyster there..
damn big 1..
as big as my hand size..
stunnin lox..
lucky i dun eat de..
if not i eat 1 liao sure wanna vomit oredy..
lolx..

cun really rem wad i had..
tink i had..
ehx..
handroll(x3)..
cheese cake(x2 of 3cmx3cm)..
pizza(x2 of 5cmx5cm)..
prawn tempura(x4)..
fish teppanyaki..
speghatti..
crocodile soup..
(mum says its good 4 my sensitive nose..)
stil got wad ar?..
cun rem liaox..
heh..
ps arx..

bao bei..
miz u alot alot..
esp aft 4 days of camp w/o meetin u..
n oto din get 2 hug u b4 i left 4 camp..
but its ur fault lox..
if u nv wake up late den got time liaox..
baka lei..

hmmx..
dun really like u 2 run here run there wit me sumtimes?..
jux feel like its wastin time..
den..
wan u 2 hav more rest oto..
so..
nx time dun waste tis kinda time oki..

n hor..
sorry worx..
hmmx..
felt bad buwee-in u in front of ur fenx..
hehx..
hope 2 bu chang?..
or not?..
hagax..
bleahx..

anw..
jux miz u alot alot lox..
*mUaCkX n HuGgIeX*

wo zou lerx..
*chao xiang bao bei*
*bao bao*

i'm buack~

2004-11-22T01:26:00.000+08:00

hmmx..
jux back fr ltc..
din update on wed nite cuz was too busy packin..
den wanna hav enuff slp b4 e camp..
so decided 2 rest early w/o updatin..
den halfway thru..
rec a sms fr meifang...
remindin me 2 rem 2 br my toothbrush..
lolx..
cuz i 4got all bout them in da connection camp lox..
lolx..
den gotta share it wit xn..
oto dunno how we survive wit tat..
lolx..
anw..
*thx meifang*
hehx..

thur (18/11)

was supposed 2 meet bao bei at my stn at 8.15..
but tat baka..
onli jux woke up wen i bombarded his hp..
was a lil pissed..
cuz kept remindin him last nite tat i havta b in sch early liaox..
angry lox..
sianx..
den set off 4 sch 1st w/o him..
sianx..
tat baka onli reached sch wen e briefin was abt 2 start at bout 9.15 lox..
den got e slpin bag n wind breaker fr him..
den faster fly bak 2 my seat..
cuz they r really startin le lox..
den bo bianx..
cun drag liaox..
so faster take le den go..
den everybody was like looking at me lox..
lolx..
so ps..
kekex..

aft tat..
we’re split into 4 grps..
our grp started wit 6 ppl..
but last day onli left 4..
sum more is luckily xiang wei joined our grp on e 3rd dae de lox..
if not we jux left 3 2dae lox..
lolx..

kk..
den our grp leader is han qi qi..
so we named our grp ‘SK II’..
lolx..
den we started paintin our flags..
as usual..
wasn’t supposed 2 move wen e music stopped..
but was caught..
cuz my arm was like freezing in e air lox..
so trembled abit..
kekex..
den kena drew by han qi qi..
sianx ½ lox..
cuz e ‘HQ’ stayed on my thigh thru’out e whole camp lo..
lolx..
until now stil got abit of e markin there..
lolx..

cun really rem e sequence of wad happ..
but roughly stil can rem wad we did..
so we’re supposed 2 prepare a so-called ‘mtv’ 2 present it on e last dae b4 break camp..
den we roughly decide e song..
den wad 2 do n all..
oh ya..
was asked 2 change into our unwanted clothes..
den wen 2 play e matrix at da bbc..
den they splashed water all over e ground..
cuz its in da aftnn..
den its hot lox..
sum more its kinda rough there..
so e water is supposed 2 help reduce e temp n friction de lox..
so everybody was all wet..
den our grp was e 1st 2 finish..
kekex..
feels proud lox..
kekex..
den cun really rem wad liaox..
tink we’re asked 2 prepare lotsa cheer 4 a cheer marathon..

den we hav freshido or wadever e spellin is..
den damn dirty lox..
damn disgustin..
tink got egg ar..
bread ar..
n all e er xin er xin tingys..
tink they’d set up in a stn manner..
so we gotta move ard blindfolded lox..
den e 1st stn our grp kena is freshido liaox..
den e 2nd 1 is 2 taste e food..
den guess wad it is..
but e 3rd 1..
guess was a lil too dangerous bahx..
cuz tats where edric n me got hurt..
we jux fell fr e chair lox..
den me kena hit in e eye..
tink they arranged e chairs in a circle..
den we’re standin on it..
wad we’re supposed 2 do its tat..
we gotta arrange ourselves in e manner of our bdae..
nth happ..
but durin e 2nd task 2 arrange ourselves accordin 2 our admin no..
cuz edric was supposed 2 b e last person..
so we gotta change place wit each other 2 complete e whole tingy lox..
but halfway thru we jux lose our balance n fall inwards e circle..
tat explains y i hurt my rite eye durin e process of fallin..
cuz we’re blindfolded..
so cun c anyting..
so how u expect me 2 protect myself wen i cun c wats in my way?..
its kinda lame lox..
lolx..
den oto hurt my kneecaps..
haix..
but lucky is jux a scratch..
den my rite knee is hei qing..
lolx..
but e serious 1 is kena my eye de..
cuz i tink it jux go right into my eye lox..
so sianx..
but jux a cut..
n hei qing..
den swollen..
den my eye all red..
den nx dae den i realized tat my nose bridge there oto injured..
pain lox..
swollen oto..
den i sianx..
lolx..
cuz it hurts wen i push up my specs..
lolx..

den aft tat fall..
immediately stopped playin liaox..
den went 2 bathe..
clean up my wound..
den xiao zhen help me attend 2 it..
*thx xiao zhen*
aft tat jux stayed in sac foyer 2 wait 4 e others 2 cum bak..
den supper..
den go 2 bed liaox..

fri (19/11)

had breakfast..
den went up 2 sb there 4 our apex..
was e 1st club 2 reach there..
den waited 4 2 other clubs..
spsu n sp photographer..

1st was ice breakin games..
den we started wit e 1st activity..
its individual de...
which we’re supposed 2 cross fr 1 side 2 another on a metal wire wit e help of 4 ropes along e way..
it was sunny since e start of e dae lox..
but dunno y wen my turn comes..
den it started drizzlin..
but wen i’m bak on da ground..
it stopped lox..
wth..
sianx ½..
lolx..
den half way thru we went 2 hav our lunch..
which we gotta eat ourselves..
cuz there’s no food prepared 4 us..
den we got bak out wallets n hps..
den i immediately called bao bei once i’d on it..
lolx..
kekex..

den e other activity gotta pair up de..
den they say muz boy n gal..
so i got daryl..
we’re e 1st pair 2 go in e grp..
(we’re split into 2 grps within our club..)
so we havta cross e log wit onli each other’s support..
den thru’out e whole tingy..
e rope tats supposed 2 keep us safe in case we fall or wad..
kept hittin my helmet which made me kept almost losin balance lox..
lolx..
den took a min or 2 to regain it..
den sumting funny happ wen i was bein lowered down onto e ground..
tink e guy din let off enuff rope 2 hav me standin on e ground..
so i was like half hangin n half on ground lox..
lolx..
cuz i was like..
how 2 say..
k its like..
my toe is touchin e ground..
but it wasn’t low enuff 4 me 2 even tip toe lox..
u get it?..
is its like i’m jux touchin e ground 2 stop myself fr goin round n round lox..
lolx..
so i asked e guy if he cud lower my down sum more lox..
if not i cun even stand properly lox..
lol..

den aft our grp had completed it..
we’re told 2 go 2 e area where e absailin place is lox..
but onli 2 ppl managed 2 finish it..
cuz it was rainin like shit lox..
super heavy rain lox..
lolx..
den we jux waste time..
den we ended e whole ting wit e last activity which requires us 2 transport e ppl fr all 3 clubs over a wall of bout 2.5m high I tink..
of cuz we succeeded la..
but we took bout 12mins lidat..
tink can b considered as quite fast oredy le bahx..
lolx..

aft tat..
had a sing-a-long session b4 dinner..
which we gotta eat out agn..
but onli restricted 2 onli clementi..
n was oto given a task..
tat is 2 prepare 2 game 4 e gps n all..
den we gotta plan it all durin our dinner time..
was given 2½ hours 2 eat n prepare..

den we prepared n played e game of each other’s game n all lox..
had e debriefin of our games n e way we did it n all..
den got e talk by vincent..
bout e camp n all..
had an early nit tat nite..
so wen 2 slp early..

sat (20/11)

had breakfast as usual..
played sum station games..
was e 1st grp 2 finish as usual..

done field cookin 4 lunch..
which we gotta present sum of our cookings 4 e gps there..
den they’ll decide which is e most delicious..
most nice looking n all..
den e awards..
hahax..
tat was a lame 1..
anw..
our grp got e most delicious prize..
wit e SK II award..
lolx..
while e other grp gotten e candyfloss award..
the incredibles award..
the we r e best award..
(its e award of our grp name lox..
lolx..)

nx was a game which require us 2 plan an event within a given budget n all..
den was suppose 2 submit a proposal 2 them wit e oc list..
e budget breakdown..
e schedule n all..
den we’re supposed 2 oto hav a skit 2 show was gonna happ durin e event n all..
so means we gotta need 2 buy sumting fr e ‘mama shop’ they’d set up..
as our grp picked e task 2 do an event 2 educate our clubmates bout how christmas came abt n all..
so we onli bot e christmas deco fr them..
lolx..
can say our grp din really done e very good job bout tat bahx..

den comes dinner..
aft dinner..
we had e bdae surprise 4 rachel..
it was her 17th bdae tat dae..
*happi bdae fishball*

den aft tat..
we played a game tat required us 2 protect e egg tat’ll b thrown down fr 3 diff heights wit jux straws n sum raffia strings 4 us 2 tie them 2gether nia..
den e 3 other grps all hav e same pattern 1..
all 3 look like e mini ‘bolster’ shape..
lolx..
onli our grp de is e ‘spiky’ 1..
den of cuz as usual..
our grp won agn la..
hahax..
=x
but our ‘qi qi fei zhuan’ had survived e 3 diff heights wit e egg stil intact lox..
kekex..
muahahahaha~
lolx..

follwed by e ‘campfire’ sing-a-long session at sac foyer..
den we had a mini k box session..
den is e nitewalk liaox..
they played horror movie while we wait 4 our turn 2 go..
we’re walkin thru it individually..
n tats wen i’d died..
lolx..
i was e 2nd person 2 go..
n it was jux e start nia lox..
at e salc there nia..
den i brokedown le..
was scared by e ‘thud’ sound of sumting like a bottle which was an accident by chuan ming they all..
den jux kneeled on e floor 2 cry lox..
sum more cry til damn jia lat liaox..
lolx..
den they jux send me str away 2 e endin point..
lolx..
den saw jian rong oredy there..
wit xiao zhen n another female gp there..
dunno her name..
den took short naps there while feedin e mosquitoes..
lolx..
den wen bak 2 sac at bout 3+ i tink..
stil got ppl there hu haven start e walk..
so we all jux sat in another corner 2 nua..
den i jux slept there lox..
den jux went 2 bed immediately i hit our bunk..
din bathe lox..
den jux went str 2 slp..

sun (21/11)

last dae of camp..
woke up 2 find e zip of my slpin bag at my leg there de opened..
den noe me kena drawn liaox..
cuz we ain suppose 2 slp on e last nit..
den i oto heck care..
cuz damn tire liaox..
wanna draw den let them draw lox..
lolx..

den had breakfast..
den cleared our bunks..
den last preparation 4 our ‘mtv’..
lolx..

den perform..
den e guys bili banja zc..
lolx..
den draw han qi qi oto..
den break camp..
den collect our valuables..

called bao bei..
den went 2 meet him at woodlands initially..
but suddenly tot..
aiya.. its sun..
mite bump into mum they all..
so used public phone 2 call him..
cuz my hp low batt le..
totally flat liaox..
den wen 2 yishun 2 hav my lunch..
den decided 2 go home aft tat..
cuz bao bei hav guitar lesson..
den e baka..
din tell me initially..
den stil hai me happily eat slowly while i fill him up..
lolx..

onli realized it wen he asked if i mind nuain at cd hut..
den let him send me til mrt stn nia..
cuz din wan him 2 waste more time travellin..
he was oredy late wen we left yishun lox..
sianx ½..
den acc him 2 wait 4 e train..
den i went home..
talked 2 mum awhile..
den go bomb e toilet bowl..
den took a nap..
den had dinner..
den watch awhile of tv..
den online liaox..
tink tats all bahx..
cun really rem all..
u ppl noe i got stm 1..
hehx..

¼ qing ren..
hav more rest k..
u look very very shag..
n take good care ya..
dun fall sick k..
*huggiex*

bao bei..
u arx..
dun tink too much la..
oki..
tats e way tings r..
n not onli me kena tis kinda tings..
so dun tink too much bout it oki..
i noe u’re like tis cuz u care..
but its sumting both of us cun control de..
so..
dun tink too much k..

seriously..
kept tinkin bout u durin e camp lox..
always hoped u’re by my side..
jux missed u a lot lox..
haix..
den finally can meet u le..
but u stil late..
tats y a lil pissed off..
cuz really cun wait 2 c u n all lox..
wanna hear ur voice..
wanna hug u n all..

thx 4 ur apple juice worx..
baka..
nx time can wait til meet me 1st den buy de mahx..
baka..
k la..
u noe u gotta wake up early 2ml..
so u beta rest early 2nit oki..
no more naruto 4 u liaox..
go slp 1st..
2ml den watch..
baka..
*MUACKX n HUGGIEX*
heex..
cux really miz u a lot a lot..
so all in caps..
kekex..

wo zou lerx..
*thx bao bei*
*chao xiang ni*
*muackx*

我不想放手..

2004-11-17T01:43:00.000+08:00

haix..
难道两个人在一起真的那么辛苦吗?..
haix..
难道要受这种苦才叫真爱吗?..
haix..
难道我就这么配不起他吗?..
haix..
难道我的过去就这么难接受吗?..
haix..
难道过去就等于现在吗?..
haix..
难道就不能让我证明我已经不是已前的我了吗?..
haix..
难道..
我会为了这一点小事放气一切吗?..
haix..

不..
我不会..
我也不想..
因为..
我放不下..
我也还没尽力过..
怎能这样轻易的就放气好不容易才得到的幸福呢..
我还没享受够呢..
才不会这样放气..
ba..ka..~

but..
y i stil cun change e view of me 2wards them?..
haix..
我还能忍受那种眼神多就呢?..
我还能忍吗?..
我还忍的了吗?..
haix..

dunno y..
i cried wen i hugged bao bei 2dae..
jux suddenly..
tis tot came into my mind..
or mb it jux felt like he's leavin me or wad bahx..
tat..
我不想放手..
不想离开他..

虽然我们俩都知道要延续这段感情不容易..
也会很辛苦..
可是..
都不想放手..
也不肯放手..
可是..
我不忍心看到宝贝辛苦..
我也不会好受..
haix..

in conclusion..
我不放手..
no matter wad..

宝贝..
辛苦你了..
要被夹在我和你的父母中间..
dunno how long it wil last..
but..
let me go thru it wit u k..
we promised 2 share both sorrows n happiness 2gether de..
rem?..
dun care arx..
bleahx..

n hor..
guess we shud go 2 ur hs less often..
den they wun keep naggin at u n all..
if not..
i sure sian de lox..
everytime hai u kane all these tings..
sux..

hmmx..
tink tats wad i wanna tell u bahx..
rest early tonite oki..
dun keeo watchin ur naruto le..
u noe u havta wake up early 2ml 2 work de..
wan an bao bei..
*muackx n huggiex*

wo zou lerx..
*chao xiang bao bei*
*bao bao tite tite*

a dae spent wit chillies n limes..

2004-11-16T00:30:00.000+08:00

*yawnx*
was starin at e red n green 'food' e whole dae..
cuz mum makin her 1 of her speciality..
e balachan chilli..
sianx lox..
dun gotta help her cut n squeeze n all..
squeeze e lime squeeze til my finger almost chou jin..
lolx..
n guess wad..
i was doin all these for bout 4-5 hours lidat lox..
sianx ½ lox..
lolx..

anw..
woke up quite late..
so it ended quite late too lox..
lolx..
den took a nap n all..
tink nth much oto bahx..
jux missed bao bei alot bahx..

¼ qing ren..
happy bdae worx..
kekex..
though cun spent it wit u..
but hoped u'd enjoyed it wit huever u're out wit bahx..
kekex..
*hUgGiEx*

bao bei..
u arx..
nv take good care of urself..
c la..
too heaty..
den now sore eyes liaox..
drink more water k..
baka lox..
stil keep tellin me not 2 worry bout u..
can take care of urself n all..
now u lidat..
make me more worried nia lox..
baka..

hmmx..
miz u alot 2dae..
kept tinkin wat ur're doin wen cuttin e chillies n all..
kept imaginin u watchin naruto..
or mb u felt too bored at home..
den go 2 bbc 2 shoot awhile n all..
jux kept tinkin of wad u're doin wen u din sms me n all lox..
heex..
den jux now wen i was abt 2 sms u..
den rec ur sms liaox..
kekex..
tao yan worx..
ppl dun sms u den u wun sms me le la..
baka..

make sure u rest early 2nit arx..
u oto noe 2ml gotta get up early..
so u beta rest early 2nit oki..
*muackx n huggiex*

wo zou lerx..
*chao xiang bao bei*
*mUaCkX*

hApPy

2004-11-15T02:38:00.000+08:00

hmmx..
woke up by bao bei's phone call..
ehx..
tink we had a fight ydae?..
due 2 sum miscommunitcation i tink..
hehx..
jux felt its kinda silly..
cuz tink i'd fell aslp wit my phone's ringin sound..
lolx..
heex..
but anw..
den was woke up by it..
den dunno y went 2 ans it wen i'd intended 2 jux let it ring..
den we chatted..
cleared e misunderstandings n all..
den jux sweet tok n all lox..
kekex..
for 2 hours i tink..
den i went bak 2 slp..
hehx..
but was disturbed by my mum at noon..
sianx..
she jux scared me awake..
lolx..
or mb is i zhi zhao de bahx..
cuz tink i told her i'll wake up at 10 2 start tidyin e cupboard..
(cuz had oredy removed all of e stuffs inside last nit..
so wad we need 2 do is jux 2 clean up..
den replace all e tings bak..
cleaned..)
den i jux dragged myself up..
was freakin tired lox..
den my eyes were puffy too..
oh ya..
i cried myself 2 slp last nite..
heex.. =x

aft cleanin up e cupboard..
went 2 had lunch at old woodlands centre while lettin e stuffs dry up..
so started work almost immediately aft we'd reached home..
.cuz its oredy 1.30 wen we did..
n i'm supposed 2 leave home at 4..
so at tat point of time..
i jux felt tat its almost impossible 2 finish all b4 i go out lox..
den i jux rushed n rushed..
den til bout 3.45 lidat..
smsed bao bei tat i'll b late..
den i jux kept starin at e clock while i replace those stuffs..
den dunno wad happ..
i jux told my mum i'm oredy late..
den unexpectedly..
she jux let me leave home w/o completin wad i'm supposed 2 do..
heex..
i was over e moon lox..
so faster hurried outta my house..

bao bei called wen i jux got onto e train..
guess its bout 4.30 wen i did..
its kinda late..
so we abandoned our initial plan..
which we're supposed 2 meet at harbourfront mrt stn..
den decided 2 meet str at marina bay..
luckily i bot e teenage mag b4 i got into e train..
if not i wud had been bored 2 death on e train..
neither do i wanna slp pass my stn agn..
cuz was oredy damn tired wen i left home..
was achin all over my body lox..
cuz havta climb up n down in da afternoon..
den wen i'd reached marina bay..
bao bei n company r stil at harbourfront lox..
-.-"
den wait lox..
tink i waited 4 more dan ½ an hour bahx..
cun blame them..
tats wad happens wen its in a big grp of frenx..
its time consumin 2 get eVeRy1 goin..
lolx..

while waitin there..
re-read my mag..
cuz tats e onli entertainment wit me lox..
nv br discman n all..
juz e pathetic teenage..
den walked ard..
cuz wearin skirt..
cun sit down lox..
den finally bao bei came..
told me he went off in da earlier train..
which means his frenx r in da nx train..
means gotta wait agn..
but its beta la..
cux hav bao bei 2 acc me..

den went 2 eat aft a massive 'arguement'..
lolx..
tink we'd lotsa meat..
lolx..
din had even a lil piece of vege lox..
lolx..
but wit loads of hotdogs..
my fav..
heex..
den share wit ehx xin lan..
yup.. tats her name..
cuz really got alot lox..
den let her hav sum..
while i got bao bei 2 cook more 4 me..
kekex..
bleahx..
dun pray pray horx..
its ai xin cum wen nuan pai hotdog oki..
kekex..
den had cocktail n all..
den went 2 bowl wit his frenx..
sianx..
wasnt on form..
guess i stil sumhow feel uncomfortable in skirt bahx..
sum more its my 1st time bowlin in skirt lox..
gotta hav sum yi tai..
lolx..

den..
guess my unreasonableness took over me at e endin part..
wen we're headin home..
cuz bao bei stil wanna play e dunno wad at e arcade there..
but we're oredy late lox..
cuz was supposed 2 leave at 9.30 de..
den jux nice as we finish e 1 game of bowlin..
its oredy 9.30 le lox..
so din agree 2 let him go play..
guess he was disappointed or wad bahx..
den i jux 'fa feng' at tat time..
cuz guess was a lil pissed off bahx..
den sum more her ex was there too..
haix..
sumhow wil affect me de lox..
haix..
den e bloddy bus..
dun hav enuff space 4 us..
den they wanna walk 2 city hall stn..
den walk lox..
den finally made up wit each other on e way bak..
had fun too..
heex..

bao bei..
hmmx..
hope u'd enjoyed 2day?..
hopefully e last part din spoil e whole tingy bahx..
i jux noe..
thru almost e whole tingy..
we're kinda in our own world lox..
like durin e steamboat..
pratically e whole place is taken up except e 1 seat beside u n me lox..
lolx..
hmmx..
den we'd oto walk in our own space n all..
lolx..
havin our own fun..
feels nice..
n sweet?..
cuz its wit u mahx..
kekex..
den sum more saw alot of stars at my hs there..
kekex..
jux..
nice lox..
esp wen its u're wit me n all..
hmmx..
jux felt everyting is so nice wit u ard bahx..

den..
sorry..
sianx..
dunno y my unreasonableness took over me at e last part..
jux..
cannot take it lerx?..
was tryin e get it off my mind durin e whole tingy le lox..
haix..
sorry..

anw..
since 2ml is hol..
try 2 rest at home oki..
wud seriously prefer u 2 stay at home 2 rest n all lox..
cuz u'll b kinda busy 4 e rest of e week?..
or mb wen i'm stil ard b4 e camp bahx..
jux..
rest early 2nite oki..
cuttin down on ur naruto a lil win hurt rite..
nitx bao bei..
*muackx n huggiex*

wo zou lerx..
*tired*
*xiang bao bei*

am cryin.. 4 bao bei..

2004-11-14T02:30:00.000+08:00

haix..
so wat i'd fear for came true:
afraid tat he'll feel hurt n all aft tellin him bout e pic..

haix..
sux..
hate myself 4 tellin him..
but i guess..
it sure hurts alot more if sum1 else told him tat bahx..
but..
it hurts me too..
2 tell him all those i nv wanna say..
ui meant..
its oredy in da past le..
sum more..
i'm sure he wun wanna b e last person 2 noe bout it bahx..
so i stil chose 2 tell him myself..
haix..

waited 4 e baka 4 more dan 1½ hours..
sianx lox..
nv waited 4 any of my bf 4 so long b4..
but guess he was really too tired le..
over e sentosa tingy..
den e camp tingy..
it sure is damn tirin de lox..
den stil cheng qiang..
tell me its oki..
stil can take it..
its baka lox..
*baka*

went 2 lavender 2 acc him extend his passport..
den went over 2 beach road 2 walk walk..
our main purpose is 2 go look 4 e black shirt n black pants 4 his work de..
but ended up buyin my pair of 'dream' slippers..
heex..
*thx bao bei..*

so tot we cud get'em at harbourfront there de shoppin centre..
but stil..
caught no fish..
den din go sentosa oto..
cuz yw sms me say onli got 7 ppl..
lolx..
so we decided 2 go 2 marina 2 look 4 it..
went 2 peninsular 2 look 4 his black jeans..
den my bao bei..
cut e price down fr 60 bucks 2 32 bucks..
lolx..
tink e uncle there abit bth him liaox..
hahax..

initially wanna catch a movie de..
but e time slots ain rite..
(he's goin 2 work aft tat..)
so we went 2 e arcade at suntec(above carrefour de)..
den we started wit e toopid taiwan machine..
wit e lame 3 buttons per player de..
(u noe.. e 1 wit red, green n blue buttons de..)
den went ard searchin 4 games 2 waste e other $1 de token..
so decided 2 play e 1 n onli machine i noe how 2 play..
e puzzle fighter..
tat silly bao bei of mine..
though he dunno how 2 play tat game..
went 2 change 4 another token so tat we can play e machine 2gether..
tink tat token lasted 4 quite sumtime..
cuz wen i'd finally lost 2 e bloody machine..
it was oredy 6.15 liaox..
lolx..
but tats onli 1 token..
lolx..
so stil hav another token 2 take care of..
den so we dealt wit it wit a photo search game..
lolx..

aft tat..
brought bao bei 2 e choc shop(royce)..
den bot me 1 of e 'box' of its choc..
sayin though its a lil too early..
tats my bdae present..
lolx..
*thx alot alot wor bao bei..
but nx time dun waste tis kinda money oki..
i dunnox..
tink its jux kinda ex bahx..*

den went 2 look 4 food wit him..
2 fill his stomach b4 he start work..
den acc him 2 esplanade..
but on e way there..
we exchanged our t-shirt wit each other..
lolx..
cuz we din manage 2 get his black shirt..
den coincidently i was wearin my black 'taf instructor' shirt 2day..
(oh ya..
a lil incident bout tat short of mine 2day..
it seems like every1 is so curious bout wad excatly does 'taf' means..
lolx..
so here's wad happ..
at royce..
sum kuku guy tapped me on my shoulder n asked..
'ermx.. may i noe wad does t-a-f means?'
lolx..
its 'trim-and-fit' lox..
lolx..)
guess how we did tat in da public?..
bao bei took off his shirt outside e guys' toilet..
den passed it 2 me while he wen inside 2 wait 4 me..
den i jux quickly change outta my shirt..
den wandered ard e guys' 4 awhile 2 let bao bei notice me..
den pass my shirt 2 him..
n..
its done..
lolx..
stunnin rite..
hahax..
guess he was lucky bahx..
2 hav a gf hu likes 2 wear over-sized shirts..
kekex..
if not i dun tink he cud fit into my clothin..
n guess wad..
he looks smart in my short lox..
kekex..
cuz its tite fit wen he wore it..
hahax..
guess it'd mesmerized me lox..
kekex..
cuz kept starin at him thru e rest of da journey 2 esplanade..
den sent him off 2 work there..
while i take bus home..
myself..
den fell aslp on da bus..
so e journey din felt tat long 2 me..
den went 2 da bao dinner..
mum din cook agn..

anw..
haix..
i dunnox..
guess i'd shudnt hav told him in da 1st place..
or rather..
i shudnt hav sent it in in da 1st place..
haix..
nv wanted 2 hurt him in anyway wit my past or my ex or wad..
sux..
i hAtE mE!!!!!!
aRgHXxXxXxXxXx..
*boo-hoox..*

bao bei..
guess i'd enjoyed myself 2day bahx..
esp wen e part u winked at me..
(ooh..
i almost fainted at tat instant..
felt so in dazed even wen i tink of it now..
kekex..
*^.^*)

anw..
thx 4 tat slippers n e choc..
really love'em alot..
but stil lesser dan my love 4 u larx..
*baka*
hmmx..
nx time dun waste money le oki..
esp not at tis kinda time wen u're kinda short of money urself k..

as 4 e photo e tingy..
haix..
i dunnox..
wo bu zhi dao..
haix..
*sobx..*
jux noe tat..
u're beta dan him..
really..
trust me oki..

i dunnox..
i mean..
so wad if he's good lookin?..
i dun care bout e looks lox..
ur character inside u is alot alot more beta lox..
wo wei ni nan shou..
sum more..
iTs E pAsT lE lOx..

i dun care..
dUn EvEr TiNk Of LeAvIn Me..
wil NEVER let u de..
wil HaTe u 4 tat if u did..
dun say u're not compatible wit me of wad k..
it hurts..
it really hurts seein tat right in ur blog..
*bAkA*
haix..
dunno le la..
let fate decide..
sux..

go rest early tonite oki..
wan an bao bei..
*mUaCkX n HuGgIeX*

wo zou lerx..
*xin ku but hen xiang bao bei*

sianx

2004-11-13T01:12:00.000+08:00

jux finished ironin dad’s n mum’s clothes..
tats y so late den online..
so 2day went 2 sch at 10..
at 1st tot wad i need 2 do..
den gotta meet zc n grace..
but ended up waitin 4 onli zc outside clubbie..
(we ain allowed inside rem?..)
den zc told me i dun even havta b there de lox..
cuz he say jux print indemnity form nia mahx..
grace can handle it alone de..
dun need me there..
den i sianx ½ lox..
lolx..
den zc say she’ll b late..
den i more sianx..
so since i’m oredy there..
den i sugg tat i start photocopyin 1st lox..
den dun havta waste time waitin 4 her..
but they’ve a prob..
e white papers r in da red cupboard..
i guess e onli 1s havin e key 2 it is zh n ½ ge qing ren bahx..
den they all sianx..
cuz they hav itp..
means they working..
den no choice..
they jux went 2 popular 2 buy 1 packet 4 us 2 print..
as they hav meetin..
den i’m oredy photocopyin there liaox..
so sun bian help them print e camp de indemnity form oto lox..
den aft printin all den went 2 bao bei’s hs liaox..
kekex..

bao bei..
hmmx..
dunno leix..
was jux hopin u’ll update..
mb guess tats where u’ll really jux let ur feelings inside u flow bahx..
was despo 2 read it?..
lolx..

den u tis baka..
din reply me in msn..
really baka lox..
dunno wats happenin..
if I’m gonna blow up later dun blame me k..
bleahx..
kekex..

anw..
was so anxious 2 c u reply cuz..
hav sum good news 4 u mahx..
actually wanna tell u in person de..
but since u so busy lidat..
den tink gotta tell u here bahx..
mum allowed me 2 go on sun liaox..
no chance 2 tell u immediately..
abit disappointed..
but haix..
since u so busy watchin ur naruto or wad..
den tell u here lox..

wo zou lerx..
*xiang bao bei*
*muackx n huggiex*

in pain but shiok

2004-11-12T13:45:00.000+08:00

heex..
in bao bei's hs updatin now..
cuz ydae my comp bua stun wit me..
den cun update..
sianx lox..
so 2day cum here update..
heex..

yup..
so ydae..
i hurt my middle finger..
was scalded by hOt StEaM..
but finger jux went numb instantly..
lolx..
damn pain lox..

den as 4 e shiok part..
heex..
bao bei called me almost immediately aft he discover i'd hurt myself..
so sweet worx..
kekex..
was a lil shocked initially..
cuz din expect he wud call?..
heex..
den realised he cun wait 4 me 2 even reply thru msn..
den jux call me liaox..
kekex..
*^.^*

went over 2 my relative's hs in da aftnn..
cuz her son 1st mth mahx..
den had buffet there..
aft tat went 2 bugis go look 4 bao bei..
tink we'd quarrel or wad bahx..
cun rem liaox..
but dun worry..
we're stil as good as new..
kekex..

bao bei..
u arx..
no need 2 react lidat de la..
wil xia huai me 1 lox..
tot wad happ..
cuz u sounded so anxious n all..
but heex..
feels shiok worx..
oopx..
kekex..

n hor..
now ur schedule more relax liaox..
if can..
spend more time restin dan 2 watch ur naruto oki..
dun wan u 2 tire urself up lox..
sum more got so many tings cumin up..
noe ur limit k..
*mUaCkX n HuGgIeX + mAsSaGe*

wo zou lerx..
*at his hs la..*

kan jiong

2004-11-10T23:44:00.000+08:00

haix..
kan jiong bout our chalet de proposal..
haix..
at 1st was 2 br it 2 meet ½ ge qing ren 4 her 2 sign 1..
but den last min got sumting need 2 amend..
means gotta reprint..
den sianx..
cuz 2ml public hol..
den sch nv open..
so means we havta wait til fri liaox..
cuz we'll need e letter head..
den cun reprint at home..
sianx..

den jux now aft meetin nua in club til 2..
den go meet bao bei at mrt stn 2 go 2 mr mori's hs..
den e baka..
overshot e bus stop..
den blur til dunno br me go where..
den gotta walk bak 1 stop 2 find his hs..
den he treat us eat sum food product fr japan de..
quite nice 1..
den bao bei go there help him do his comp..
den tink he wanna upgrade..
den we went over 2 sim lim square at 4.30..

at 1st e boss told us by 6 can finish e tingy..
so we went walkin ard..
den went 2 e hawker centre downstairs 2 sit sit..
den bao bei n i had our lunch there..
lolx..
aft eatin..
was abt time liaox..
so went up..
den sumting cropped up..
so means his labtop isnt ready 4 collection yet lox..
den he dropped us at novena..
den we took train 2 city hall 2 meet ½ ge qing ren..

by e time we met her..
bao bei was oredy fallin aslp at e seat there..
so din wanna wake him up..
but she insist i ask him cum over..
(cuz we're at e other end tat bao bei's slpin at..)
den tink we talked til bout 7 lidat..
den i rushed over 2 tpy 2 pass e 'improved' proposal over 2 ziqing..
so he can go amend it n all..
by e time we reach there..
bao bei's oredy half dead liaox..
sianx lox..
haix..
feel so bad lettin him acc me..
shud've make him go home 1st de lox..
haix..

bao bei..
sorry..
haix..
really shudn've let u acc me..
feel so bad..
n xin tong seein u slpin lidat..
u slept fr city hall 2 tpy..
den fr tpy bak 2 city hall..
den finally on da way home..
sux lox..
haix..
i noe sayin sorry now oto no use liaox..
but..
haix..
dunno la..
but seein u lidat..
xin tong lox..

dun care..
u 2nite muz rest early oki..
dun care..
*muackx*
now u cun fan hui liaox..
cuz sealed wit a kiss..
dun care..
bleahx..
kekex..

n hor..
u beta let ur naruto wait til u hav enuff rest 1st hor..
dun care..
ur health more impt dan him..
bleex..
k la..
go rest early oki..
*mUaCkX n HuGgIeX + mAsSaGe*

now waitin 4 ziqing 2 cum online..
den discuss bout wad 2 do 2 e proposal n all..

wo zou lerx..
*xiang bao bei*

addicted

2004-11-08T23:36:00.000+08:00

thx 2 bao bei..
i'm addicted 2 naruto..
lolx..
been watchin e anime in his hs 4 a few daes liaox..
but e psrt i watch de is in pieces 1..
1st is fr episode 20+..
den jump 2 episode 30+..
den jump 2 50+..
den jux now stopped at 63..
dotx..
but nvm..
jux kio til episode 68 fr bao bei..
heex..
cuz initially he burn it so tat he can watch durin his camp 1..
but 4got how cum land in my hands..
kekex..
*sorry lo bao bei..
hu ask u 2 hav e wHoLe show in ur comp..
occasionally kio fr u oto nvm de la hor..
cun blame me oto..
u letme watch de all in pieces de sum more..
oopx.. =x*

anw..
din update ydae cuz..
was forced de..
heex..
no la..
actually kinda my fault oto la..
too busy customisin my links..
den got no time 2 update..
cuz of my sis..
she wanna use e internet 2 do her work..
den bo bian..
oto kena mum kp..
sianx..

went 2 bao bei's hs 2 acc him in da mornin..
but was stucked at his livin room 4 bout 35mins b4 i can c him..
cuz his grandma is talkin 2 him in his room..
den i oto 不好意思 go disturb n all..
so jux 乖乖 sit outside wait..

aft she came out..
den i faster went in..
damn pai sei lox..
i'll nv feel comfortable wit her ard man..
sux..
not tat she's not frenly or wad..
its jux tat..
it makes me feels uneasy knowin tat she sort of dui wo you pian jian..
sort of dislikes me in sum way..
havin tis tot wen i'm reachin makes me feels like not goin..
but everytime tis tot appears..
i'm oredy at his corridor le..
den tinkin tat i'm oredy rite outside his hs..
jiu sian le lo..
cuz 竞然到了..
den 就这样走掉..
bao bei 一定会很 sian de lox..
den 为了要见他..
就这样厚这脸皮走进去..
sianx..
谁叫我想见他呢..
but guess all these r jux e beginnin bahx..
haix..
mb 1 dae..
she'll jux realise i'm not e kind of a person she tinks..
4 bao bei..
4 myself..
4 our future..
jux havta 忍..

bao bei..
u're in camp le..
很想你..
wonderin wat u r doin now..
u hadn smsed me since we'd parted..
guess u muz b busy n all bahx..
shan disturb u til i rec ur sms..
heex..
goin 2 start watchin naruto aft bloggin liaox..
kekex..

guess no need type too much here bahx..
if not type le oto no use..
u cun c them..
反正都已经把我要对你说的话 sms 给你了..
jux take care oki..
baka 很想你..
*mUaCkX n HuGgIeX + mAsSaGe*

wo zou le..
*lovesick*

love sick

2004-11-07T00:51:00.000+08:00

din blog ydae..
cuz was busy tokin wit bao bei on e phone..
den dun hav e feelin 2 blog oto..

anw..
ydae went over 2 yishun..
cuz gotta acc bao bei 2 replace his atm card n his safra card..
den at 1st he say wanna go c sen sei 1..
(he's been complainin tat his right ankle stil hurts..)
but wen we'd reached there..
its not open..
it says e sen sei had went overboard 4 sum dunno wad..
so til 11th nov den he'll b bak..
den we both abit sian..
cuz his injury drag 4 quite sum time liaox..
xin tong siax..
sianx..

den aft tat went bak 2 his hs..
initially wanna br his comp 2 repair de..
but dunno wad happ..
den drag drag drag til 6+ den we left his hs..
cuz initially wen i planned 4 him..
we're supposed 2 leave his hs at 2 to br his comp go repair 1st..
den go queensway 2 shop..
den he planned 2 go 2 sentosa ydae nit 1..
but guess sum disagreements happ btwn jq n him..
den nv go liaox..
tats y drag til so late..

den we went 2 buy e pouch 4 him b4 leavin 4 home..
he finally saw 1 tat he like n suited him de..
den ha bot it at 12 bucks..
a lil ex..
but e material quite good de..
so tink its worth it bahx..
den he sent me home..
refused 2 let me go agn..
sayin tis wil gonna tarhan til wen he's camp is finally over..
(means its nx wed..
sian diao lox..)
but i was oredy very late 4 home..
so was kinda rush..
sian lox..

den 2dae..
woke up at 2.45..
den went 2 meet qing ren n ah gong they all at orchard..
jux feel tat i stil havta spend sum time out wit them..
bao bei gotta work anw mah..
so mite as well go meet them 2 catch up on wad i'd missed out..
went 2 paragon..
den heeren..
den taka..
went there 2 look 4 e angel tat bao bei lost ydae..
den bot him e same 1..
but i hung it on my phone..
heex..
guess its a prac of us bahx..
wen 1 of us is out in camp or wad..
we'll switch our angels..
it means our angels lookin over each other..
n of cuz..
wil reminds us of each other..

den went 2 ps..
qing ren n i bot a key chain..
hers is a pair of boy n gal..
but mine is a pair of ah gong n ah ma..
both of e 'pair' is hooked 2 onli 1 key chain de ring..
quite cute de..
so we kinda planned 2 modify it..
kekex..

den we walked 2 selegie 2 eat tao huay..
den sat there 2 lah tao huay..
lolx..
den ah gong n lao pa decided 2 go play pool..
but wen we'd oredy reached e doorstep of e shop..
they stood outside 2 consider awhile whether they wanna play anot..
cuz its quite ex..
6 bucks man..
its as good as robbin..
lolx..
jux nice bao bei called..
sayin he knock off le..
askin where am i..
den decided 2 meet at dhobby guard(or watever e spellin is) mrt stn..
so i acc him 2 travel 2 harbourfront..
where he take bus 2 sentosa fr there..
den acc him 2 go find e canon shop n all..
den he sent me off at e mrt stn..
at 1st wanna acc him 2 take bus den i go off de..
but tat baka..
insist he acc me 2 e stn..
cuz he feels bad by askin me 2 acc him there le..
den stil say wad..
was afraid tat he mite b dependent on me n all..
its baka lox..
*baka*
den we smsed each other til we both reach our destination..

bao bei..
hmmx..
tink u cun read tis now la..
u're at sentosa lei..
unless they hav comp n internet there lox..
lolx.. =x

jux wanna tell u tat..
even if u dependent on me oto nvm..
cuz u noe if i'm free n able 2..
i wil go meet u de lox..
dunno lei..
jux feel tat its oki..
dun mind lo..
heex..
at least u feel like meetin me mahx..
den wun b like always is me wanna meet u lidat..
kekex..

dunno lei..
abit bu she de let u go camp..
but sumtimes..
not meetin is good oto mahx..
like wad i sumtimes say..
不见面是为了更想念对方..
heex..
tao yan worx..
ppl hai xiu liaox..
*^.^*

jux rem..
要好好照顾自己oki..
really scared u'll overwork urself durin e camp lox..
tink i dunno u well enuff arx..
wil work til u shag le oto dun wanna rest..
tats baka lox..

anw..
beta stop liaox..
kinda late le..
callin u once i finish..
*hUgGiEx n MuAcKx*

wo zou lerx..
*lovesick*

so sweet..

2004-11-04T23:07:00.000+08:00

heex..
tat baka of mine..
bot me a wrist rest 4 me..
cuz previously i was complainin 2 him tat my wrist hurts alot aft a long time of typin..
den we went shoppin aft work at bugis junction..
(we both knocked off at 6..
n jux nice he's jux workin at city hall..
while i'm at bugis..
so he sugg we go walk ard b4 goin home..
so we met at bugis stn..
den we went over 2 bugis village there 2 look at e 'pouch'..
but as usual..
none caught his eyes..
so we went over 2 edge..
but none caught his eyes too..
den as we're leavin..
we passed by mu-ee..
den tat baka jux drag me there..
den at 1st i was jux lookin at e hp ass there..
den he saw e wrist rest beside it..
den jux decided 2 buy it like tat..
-.-..)

at 1st i tot he was jk..
but he really paid 4 it lox..
abit shocked..
lolx..
hmmx..
was a lil touched?..
cuz tat was sum time ago tat i complained 2 him liaox..
den e ones i saw r all made of sponge 1..
not so comfy..
but bao bei bot 4 me de..
inside contains cotton wool n beans de..
very comfy lox..
den e outside..
haha..
quite cute too..
imagine e head of e cat bein pulled sideways..
lolx..
man ke ai de..
kekex..

bao bei..
thx alot worx..
heex..
cuz really din expect u 2 go buy?..
dunno leix..
jux feel sweet..
kekex..

next time dun go waste tis kinda $$ oki..
its kinda ex worx..
12 bucks..
i feel e pinch 4 u?..
sum more u tink u got lotsa money now arx..
baka lei..

xiang ni..
*muackx n huggiex*

wo zou lerx..

1 mth liaox.. ^.^

2004-11-03T23:57:00.000+08:00

time flies man..
2dae is e 1st mth we're 2gether le..
heex..
at 1st stil tot we're not meetin..
but stil..
met him at his hs..
too bad lox..
its our 1st mth..
wun let him off w/o seein him 1..
bleahx..
hagax..

as usual..
jux play gb..
den nua nua abit..
den left his hs at 5..
though stil a lil late..
but i din giv him any chance 2 watse time..
so helped him pack his bag n shut his comp n all..
hagax..
so he dun hav an excuse 2 waste time lox..
bleahx..

den his toopid bike..
soiled my pants on e way 2 e stn..
sianx diaox lox..
den i was damn angry bout it..
cuz it was white shorts..
lolx..
den i acc him til je..
den turn bak 2 go home..
was too tired..
so fell aslp on e way home..
den almost overslept..
but forced myself 2 open my eyes wen it announced 'marsiling'..
lolx..
if not wil end up in other stn agn..
den wen dived into my bed upon reachin home..
lolx..

oh ya..
n i left out sumting funny ydae..
jux wanna share it..
on e way bak fr clark quay..
(cuz we took a cab home..)
e taxi uncle asked my dad sumting like whether he's familiar wit e road in sg anot..
so my dad jux simply asked him 2 go 2 pie fr stevens road there..
satisfied wit his ans..
den he jux cont drivin..
den e nx time he broke e silence wit a 'how long hav u stayed in sg..'
den my mum burst out luffin at tat instant..
lolx..
while dad ans wit a lame 'i'm a pure singaporean..'
lolx..
initially i was stil abit slow..
cuz was oredy very tired liaox..
den e words slowly sink in..
onli den i started luffin too..
lolx..
den realised mum was luffin cuz she dun c how n why my dad wil look like he's fr china..
lolx..
hahahaha..
jux noe we jux kept luffin n liffin lox..
lolx..

den jux now..
as i tot e dae is over..
den baka turned up at my doorstep wit my lil present..
was stunned n happy lox..
kekex..
cuz i really din expect anyting fr him lox..
accordin 2 his character..
he wun te di go shop 4 sumting de..
unless he saw it by chance..
n feels tat its e best..
den he'll decide 2 get it..

so jux now he gave me a diao diao(hp ass)..
jux like e 1 i made 4 him..
e 'bao bei' 1..
same color de string..
same color de bell..
e onli diff is e tingy at e end nia..
i bot 4 him de is e sign of e gal de..
(u noe.. e circle wit e cross 1..
cuz e guy de sign(circle wit arrow)..
all sold out le..
den nvm..
let a gal tat represent me de acc him lox..)
den e 1 he bot 4 me de..
is a dolphin..
ke ai worx..
kekex..

bao bei..
thx 4 tat worx..
kekex..
really touched..
yet agn at my doorstep..
tao yan wor bao bei..
almost made me cry agn..
baka..

heex..
its our 1st mth..
but tats jux e beginnin rite..
i'm sure wil hav more of it 1..
kekex..
*mUaCkX*

u tis baka..
make me blif u wun get anyting 4 me..
den do tis n catch me by surprise..
bu hao wan lei baka..
tao yan worx..
baka baka baka..
bleahx..

exams over liaox..
den mux hao hao rest oki..
n hor..
dun overwork urself by watchin ur naruto horx..
baka..
really thx alot worx..
*muackx n huggiex*

wo zou lerx..
*xiang bao bei*
*mUaCkX*

pIsSeD oFf

2004-11-03T01:16:00.000+08:00

FUK MAN..
DUNNO Y I'M SO WORRIED WEN HE AIN EVEN WORRIED BOUT HIMSELF LO..
FUK
WATCH WATCH WATCH
ALL HE CARES ABT IS E STUPID ANIME LO
WTH
TOT HE'D BEEN WATCHIN IT ALMOST E WHOLE DAE LE
DEN NOW STIL WANNA WATCH
SAY WAD WIL KEEP HIM AWAKE
BULLSHIT LO
WTH
ITS JUX WASTIN TIME LO
WASTIN E PRECIOUS TIME N ENERGY WHICH HE CAN MAKE FUL USE OF IT BY STUDYIN INSTEAD OF WATCHIN SUM STUPID SHOW
UNLESS HE'S HAVIN AN EXAM ON TAT SHOW LA
IF NOT I DUN C E REASON N E POINT 2 WATCH TAT STUPID SHOW LO
ITS JUX A WASTE OF ENERGY N ALL LO
WTH
AIYA
I DUN CARE LE LA
DUNNO Y I SHUD WOORY BOUT IT SO MUCH WEN E PERSON HIMSELF DUN EVEN CARE
FUK

anw..
went 2 his hs 2day..
went 2 shop 4 his 'present' b4 headin 2 his hs..
bot him a customised hp ass wit 'baobei' on it..
den saw tis wallet at 77th street wen i was leavin..
den tot he mite like it..
cuz i jux feels tat it suits him alot lox..
jux like his style..
so jux bot it w/o tinkin twice..

den i jux helped him get e hp ass onto his phone..
but tat baka din realised it lox..
until i asked him if he finds anyting diff bout his hp..
its really baka lox..
cuz i added a bell at e end of it..
den its like..
wit tat new tingy there..
its noisier lox..
but tat baka..
really baka lo..
watch tat toopid anime watch til everyting oto dunno liaox..

den as 4 his wallet..
while he was havin his lunch outside..
helped him transfer all his tings in his old wallet den jux replace it into his drawer..
heex..
glad tat he like it though..
was kinda afraid he mite not like it..
but i jux cun help feelin tat it really suits him alot lox..

den went off at 6.30..
went over 2 clark quay 2 meet my parents they all..
was so tired tat i fell aslp in e train..
wakin up now n den 2 make sure i din overshot..
den went 2 an expensive restaurant 2 hav dinner..
its reall damn ex lox..
imagine tat meal cost us bout 150 bucks..
lucky sis hav a voucher of 100 bucks..
if not its a killer meal man..
so bloody ex..

bao bei..
am stil pissed off lox..
wth..
dunno wad u exactly wanted..
tats e onli differece we hav bahx..
our tinkin 2wards tis kinda issue..

anw..
glad u liked e wallet n e diao diao..
din really expect anyting fr u..
so feel disappointed oto no use..
cuz u're character..
dun tink u'll te di go buy de lox..

haix..
tink i oto dun care le..
guess even if i tell u no..
u'll stil go watch ur anime de bahx..
there's nth i can do oto..
haix..

watever la..
like i'd said..
i'm not e 1 takin exam..
jux make sure u got study can le ba..
den 2ml..
haix..
tink suan liaox..
dun go disturb u study or even watch ur anime..
tink wun b meetin le bahx..
haix..
our 1st mth..
jux gone lidat..
haix..

wo zou lerx..
*muackx*

woo hoo~

2004-11-02T00:08:00.000+08:00

earned 60 bucks in 2 daes..
feels shiok man..
hagax..
yea..
cuz it means can go shoppin liaox..
kekex..
of cuz not 4 myself la..
u ppl noe i nv like shoppin 1..
unless i need 2..
bleahx..
too bad la..
i'm not gal..
besides..
its tirin 2 carry so many tings 2 walk ard lo..
n ma fan too..
dunno y my sis they all can tarhan..
oh..
i noe y liaox..
cuz e 1 carryin their tings r me n my dad n jie fu..
tats y they dun feel e trouble..
lolx..

anw..
went 2 work 2dae too..
was rainin cats n dogs..
n damn cold too..

went off at bout 4.15..
den went 2 meet bao bei..
he arx..
really zhi zao hui qi si wo..
asked him 2 wait 4 me at je liaox..
den dunno y he stil go take train 2wards my hs de stn..
diaox lox..
muz say him til i vomit blood den he understand..
lolx..
den he alighted at cck 2 wait 4 me..
i rather he spend e 10 mins 2 wait 4 me rather dan both of us wastin 20 mins waitin 2 meet each other lox..
u mite as well kill me..
lolx..
cuz really miz him alot lox..
jux wanna c him earlier mahx..
heex.. *^.^*

sianx..
2 more days..
stil dunno wad 2 get?..
tink i'm goin crazy over it..
aRgHx..
ze me ban?.. ze me ban?..
pi gu qie liang ban..
oopx..
lolx..

hmmx..
tink i noe wad 2 do liaox..
kekex..
can go shop shop b4 meetin him 2ml..
yep..
tats it..
hagax..
oopx..
did i say sumting?..
bleahx..

bao bei..
guess u always hate 2 let me go(home)..
i hate 2 let u go too..
but haix..
i'd nv felt comfortable in da public?..
dunno lei..
was really yearnin 2 hug u n all lox..
butden sumting in me stopped it..
sianx lox..
haix..

but stil..
i liked e way u hugged me..
so tite..
so warm..
so comfy..
n so.. safe in ur arms..
can jux simply fall aslp in ur arms w/o worryin lox..
n tats e kinda hug i'd always hoped 4?..
dunno leix..
heex..
jux feels so nice 2 cuddle in ur chest n b surrounded but ur strong arms..
heex.. *^.^*

jux miz u alot..
i always do lox..
but e urge is stronger 2dae..
esp wen i noe i'm near 2 u..
tats y was a lil pissed wen u told me u're intendin 2 wait 4 me at marsilin..
cuz i was oredy on my way 2 u le lox..
den u jux kept movin away fr me..
sian diao lox..
lolx..

dunno la..
jiu shi hen xiang ni jiu dui le..
kekex..
*mUaCkX n HuGgIeX*

wo zou lerx..
*chao xiang bao bei..*
*qing qing n bao bao*

hmmx..

2004-10-31T22:18:00.000+08:00

went 2 work 2dae..
met quite alot of ppl i noe..
actually is 2 onli la..
but seldom got c ppl i noe eatin there..
so consider quite alot liaox..

1st saw wan zhen..
my pri n sec schmate..
though no contact liaox..
but stil..
its a fact tat we'd knew each other bahx..

den 2nd person saw..
my kor(kim hock)..
e 1 hu had e same surname as me..
n sum ppl really tot we're e real siblings..
lolx..
knew him thru my npcc de atc camp..
n i guess tat was bout 2/3 yrs ago liaox?..
hmmx..
time really flies..
tink he was shocked 2 c me..
lolx..
cuz he nv tot i was workin there rite in tat coffeeshop?..
lolx..
den kept makin fun of him..
haha..
bleahx..

knocked off at 5..
took train bak myself..
cuz kel kor kor said they not comin bak 2nit..
so asked me 2 go hm myself..
reached hm at bout 6..
den played awhile wit baby..
den they came bak at bout 6.30..
sian ½ lox..

den had dinner..
washed up e dished..
den boof..
here 2 blog agn..

bao bei..
miz u alot?..
dunno lei..
abit hopin u wud say tat u're meetin my at yishun 2 acc me hm or wad de..
sianx..
dunno la..
dun dare 2 tink too much..
cuz u gotta study too..
2ml got paper..

guess was realy hopin 2 c u 4 a lil while bahx..
den saw a couple on e way home..
they jux hugged each other like how we always did on train?..
den sianx..
suddenly sian diao lox..
am oredy tinkin so much bout u liaox..
den gimme c tis..
wad the..
den bth..
force myself 2 slp..
wen was passin by yishun..
got e urge 2 get down n fly 2 ur hs..
but din..
guess u wun wanna c me at tat time bahx..
u're studyin rem?..
almost missed my stop agn..
lolx..

haix..
dunnox..
sianx..
dunno 2ml can meet u anot..

anw..
jia you 4 ur paper oki..
*mUaCkX n HuGgIeX*

wo zou lerx..
*xiang bao bei..*
*muackx*

decomposing day..

2004-10-31T01:04:00.000+08:00

sianx..
exams over liaox..
abit 无所事事的感觉..
lolx..
bo bianx..
cuz exams over liaox..
den those ppl hu noe me de wil noe i wun touch my book aft exam de lox..
so..
its abit like..
suddenly nth 2 do lidat..
lolx..
dun havta study..
den oto suddenly very free lidat..
lolx..
oopx.. =x

anw..
went over 2 bao bei's hs 2day..
as usual..
nua til nite..
lolx..
but its time was actually 2 force him 2 study de..
but as u c..
i din succeed lox..
cuz he jux refuse 2 leave his tv alone til evenin lidat..
lolx..

guess i was i lil pissed off 2dae bahx..
cuz its like i'm e 1 hu is more worried dan e 1 takin e paper lox..
diaox..
toopid lox..
kept askin him 2 study..
den he jux watch tv sittin in front of e comp/table..
den nv study..
if not study usin his comp wit all e notes downloaded fr e blackboard den end up playin gunbound..
i almost exploded in his hs lox..
快要把我气死了..
shit lox..
sianx..
气到..
我不想骂他/讲话了lox..
tat baka..
really damn angry lox..
angry til i dun even feel like hittin him or wad liaox..
(it means its worst dan jux hittin him le..
cuz 最可怕的事是i'm so angry til dun even wanna hit him liaox..
wat else can u imagine..
tats wat bcum of me wen i'm explodin..
lolx..)

den i went bak at bout 8.15..
he sent me 2 e mrt stn..
on e way there..
lolx..
played sum stuns..
he asked me 2 control e wheels..
which ended us up in 2 times of stuns..
lolx..
1st was we jux went str into e bunch of low bushes..
lolx..
den went str up onto e slope..
hahax..
but we escape fallin fr both of it..
lolx..
hahax..
til wil b more dan tat if it wasnt bao bei..
heex.. ^.^"

bao bei..
u arx..
can u jux study anot arx?..
noe how much i'm worried bout ur papers anot?..
jux work super duper hard 4 4 more daes..
den u can enjoy 4 4 weeks liaox..
can u jux 'abandone' ur tv 4 jux these few daes den u can watch all u wan 4 all i care aft ur papers lox..
aRgHx..
气死我了啦..
baka..

hmmx..
its our 1st mth soon worx..
dunno u rem anot..
or mb u rem but jux act blur nia..
sianx..
dunno wad 2 get 4 u?..
run outta ideas liaox..
now abit hard on cash oto..
sianx..
nvm..
wil noe wad 2 do wen e time cums..
kekex..

but abit sianx..
tink i nv tell u b4..
nv liked my bf 2 go clubbin 1..
n u're goin aft ur last paper finishes?..
n its our 1st mth lox..
sianx..

anw..
miz u alot alot..
miz huggin u 2 slp..
haix..
*love sick*
oopx.. =x
早点睡oki..
*muackx n huggiex*

wo zou lerx..
*超及想你*
baka..
*mUaCkX*

a wad dae u mean?..

2004-10-30T01:31:00.000+08:00

hmmx..
i din update ydae rite..
cuz was too busy chattin wit my old classmates n clearin my mail le..
so here's wad happ..

ydae.. (28/10)

aft my last paper..
went 2 meet bao vei at e mrt stn..
den saw jq there..
went 2 t10 there wit bao bei..
he went there 2 look 4 his lecturer..
4 more revision b4 his paper 2dae..
left at 6pm 2 sim lim square 4 his comp..
sianx..
tink sumting bad happ tat dae?..

oh ya..
was late 4 home..
cuz its thur..
sianx..
i gotta reach home by 7.45 rem?..
but i was damn fukin late lox..
7.45 le stil outside sim lim waitin 4 cab..
damn sian lox..
was damn pissed off by e shop de boss lox..
was oredy rushin 4 tim den he stil can do his tings all so slow-motion..
fuk up lox..
i was so fukin pissed lox..
wanna fa xie on e wall 1..
but stil got hold of myself..
cuz din wan bao bei 2 worry..
den he was like so lucky lox..
lidat stil got him a mercedes de taxi..
lolx..
rem sayin tis 2 bao bei..
'er xin lox.. zhe yang dou gei ni zuo dao mercs..'
lolx..
cuz we all r oredy damn fukin pissed le lox.
lolx..

k den he dropped me at marsilin mrt stn..
fr there i sprinted all e way home lox..
on e way stil almost slipped..
cuz e rain jux stop i guess..
den stepped on e wet drain cover..
almost fall..
lucky din..
cuz my action too fast liaox..
den managed 2 regain my balance..
den fuk lox..
saw sis at home..
den she say she jux reached home..
den i sian ½..
hai me run all e way home..
wit sum1 oredy at home..
diaox..
haix..
but suan liaox..
was my fault in da 1st place..
cun blame any1..

today.. (29/10)

woke up at bout 10 lidat..
den met bao bei at my train stn aft his paper..
went 2 his house..
nua all e way til 7+ den went home..
lolx..

we ate 1 plate of fried rice each..
den shared 2 packets of maggie mee..
lolx..
tink his maid abit shocked..
lolx..
bo bian..
was so freakin hungry lox..
lolx..

tink nth much bahx..
guess i finally fell aslp on his bed at bout 5+..
den dunno y woke up at 6+..
den realised its abt time 2 go home..
den heex..
tat baka..
sent me til yishun mrt stn onli..
a lil sianx bahx..
but bo bian..
its kinda late le..
dun wan him 2 run here run there oto..
den sum more his dad dun like it..
den he meetin his frenx 2 play bb too..
so nvm lox..
i went home alone..
tink meetin him agn 2ml?..
hmmx..

bao bei..
tink i'm goin crazy waitin 4 u 2 update ur blog lox..
hav time 2 watch tv..
den dun hav time 2 update blog la..
tat time ur comp spoilt..
cun blame u..
den now lei..
say wad wanna study..
but u got study meh?..
no lox..
baka..
i rather u waste time bloggin rather dan u watch tv arx..
i really tink u're spendin too much time on ur tat new cable le lox..
if u gonna flung ur papers..
its e cable's fault..
if u dun wanna regret not doin well n not havin enuff rest..
u beta jolly well switch off ur tat tv n either go rest or go study..
dun tink mon is stil far hor..
its not lox..
time flies de hor..
so u beta get ur butt movin b4 its too late lox..
den by e time..
even burnin mid-nite oil is too late liaox..
baka..

i noe i'm gettin naggy..
but..
since u tink u din do well in ur past 2 papers..
den u beta start workin hard 4 ur next 2 papers lox..
2 at least make up 4 it or wad mahx..
den stil can watch tv..
wanna wait til i blow ur tv up den u're happi izit..
baka lox..
jux work hard 4 bout 5 more days den u can watch e tv til ur eyes drop out oto nobody wil object le lox..
can?..
dun 4get wad we'd planned de lox..
2 use our studies..
2 convince ur dad..
baka..

wo zou le la..
*yao bei qi si lerx..*

*muackx*
nah..
dun say nv gib u horx..
baka..

1st paper over..

2004-10-27T13:57:00.000+08:00

yeahx..
1st paper over liaox..
1 more paper 2 go..
den hol..
muahahaha~
bleahx..

din blog last nit..
cuz was busy studyin 4 my electronics..
hehx..
kinda enjoy studyin..
cuz was studyin while watchin 'the champion' for 3 times over n over agn..
hiak hiak..
den burnt myself til 2..
den bth..
go slp le..

initially tot cun chat wit bao bei..
but smsed him..
den discover he's stil awake..
den called his hp excitedly..
kekex..
cun wait 2 hear his voice lox..
its more dan 24hrs of nOt meetin him leix..
den oto cun keep callin him..
cuz both of us havta study..
den sianx lox..

but discovered sumting new bout us..
tat is..
we actually had e same tot lox..
i mean as in..
wen i finally cun tarhan n jux called him..
i told him tat previously i actually wanna sms him de..
to e extend of oredy finish typin e sms le lox..
but din send..
cuz was afraid 2 disturb him..
den he admitted he oto wanted 2 sms me too..
oredy prepared 2 type e sms le..
but stil din..
den we both sian..
lolx..

if not is tat..
we'll rec each other's sms str aft we jux sent it out lox..
lolx..
dunnox..
guess bakas tinks alike bahx..
lolx..
bleahx..
den we chatted til 2.15 lidat..
den go slp le..

den was suppose 2 meet e baka at 8.10 2 cum sch..
but tink he overslept or wth lox..
den asked me 2 leave w/o him..
sianx ½ lox..
was oredy full of hope 2 meet him liaox..
den lidat..
sianx sianx sianx lox..
fuk..
oopx.. =x

den went over 2 my examination hall..
saw ah gong there..
(he foward e module..)
den did sum last revision wit him..
cuz he predicted sum of e graphs tingy mite come out..
den took a glance of it..
n it did came out lox..
but dun tink wil scoer full marks oto..
cuz jux glance nia..
nv go rem or wad..

aft havin kfc wit ah gong..
went over spac2go 2 met bao bei..
fell aslp there..
den jq came..
den nua abit..
den bao bei say he wanna print sum past yr paper 2 prac..
so i ended up in salc now lox..

bao bei..
tink dun havta leave meg 4 u le rite..
u jux sittin behind me onli lox..
anyting can jux tell u str de rite..
baka..
dunnox..
but stil..
miz u bahx.. =x

wo zou lerx..
*mUaCkX*

i broke it.. but shiok.. kekex..

2004-10-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

rem i sed wun b meetin bao bei til exam's over?..
but heh..
cun control myself..
so intended 2 look 4 bao bei at e mrt stn aft he knock off..
but due 2 my miscalculation..
i missed e timin lox..
den diaox..
kinda disappointed..
cuz was really hopin 2 c him there bahx..
den sianx..
smsed 2 ask where he was..
den went over 2 fc4 2 look 4 him..

caught him jux as he was leavin..
*heng*
den tagged along wit him 2 his club(spac2go)..
actually was prepared 2 fo bak club 2 study..
cuz he sed he wanna study alone wad..
so jux tot of acc him there den go study le lox..
but heex.. he asked me 2 come along..
kekex..
so i jux tag along lox..
den he told me jq oto comin..
dunno y abit sianx?..
but good oto la..
lidat den got more motivation 2 study provided we all 3 study 2gether la..
but we did it lox..
kekex..
but i kinda fell aslp halfway..
kekex..
but stil..
at least i'd covered sumting wad..
kekex..

den study til 4 lidat..
went over 2 fc4 2 eat..
was damn hungry lox..
even bao bei can hear my stomach screamin 4 help..
kekex..
den went 2 look 4 jq at salc..
cuz bao bei n him wanna go print e past yr papers..
so faster chiong everyting at a go..
cuz salc closin at 5..
den we'd onli reached at bout 4.40 lidat..
so abit de rush..
den went over 2 bao bei's hs 2 nua awhile..
did quite alot of tings there..
n i meant memorable ones..
though mite not b very special..
but e feelin is special 2 us can le..
den was stil dreamin bout e part where we kept takin pics 2gether wit his phone..
feels sweet n nice lox..
shit.. start dreamin of it agn..
kk..
gotta faster finish updatin my blog den go study liaox..

so i was dreamin bout it so much on e way 2 yishun mrt stn tat i din hear my phone shoutin 4 me lox..
(i was walkin bak alone..
din wanna bao bei 2 send me home..
cuz he need e lil time 2 study..
n he noe it too..)
den saw 6 missed calls..
all fr bao bei..
den i stun..
tink he muz b damn worried lox..
den jux kept sayin sorry once i picked up his nx call..
heex..
*sorry wor bao bei..
but sumtimes let u worry awhile oto shiok worx..
oopx.. =x*
den he acc me til i reach home..
n i mean til wen i'm really home lox..
means he chated wit me fr his blk there..
to yishun mrt stn..
til marsiling mrt stn..
til under my blk..
til i'm inside my room lox..
kekex..
feels kinda sweet..
cuz tats e 1st time any1 ever did tat 2 me?..
i mean..
even if my ex dun send me home or wad..
they dun even call 2 check if i'm home..
wil jux sms onli..
n tats onli 1 of e reason tat makes bao bei diff fr them..
kekex..
*love ya worx..*
*^.^*
*muackx*

bao bei..
i'm sorry bout ydae..
promise it wun happ agn..
n i really mean it..
(i mean e promise la..
not wad i'd said..
dun baka n misunderstand me k..)

n u ask y i wanna meet u 2day..
wen i'd said we're not meetin til exam's over..
cuz..
guess i really missed u alot lox..
plus din wanna let u hug ydae..
kinda despo bahx..
oopx.. =x

guess wad u'd said it true..
we're jux goin deeper n deeper lox..
wit no limit lidat..
n hopfully i wil nV reach ur tat last safeline k..
hopefully i'm nOt TaT unreasonable lox..

anw..
i jux hope we can go deeper n deeper n deeper like nobody business..
oopx.. =x
did i say sumting?..
kekex..
i dunnox..
not sure wad wil happ in da future..
jux cherish now can le..
rite?..
tats wad we'd always agreed wit each other wad..
kekex..

bao bei..
jia you 4 ur papers oki..
noe we wun b meetin 2ml..
so mux giv it ur best shot n work hard..
4 ur future..
4 our future..
oopx.. =x
kekex..
wil miz u alot de..
*xiang ni..*
*mUaCkX n HuGgIeX*

wo zou lerx..
*xiang bao bei*
*muackx*

a break..

2004-10-24T23:23:00.000+08:00

was too tired ydae..
tats y din update..
reached home onli at midnite..

so here's wad happ ydae..

actually was plannin not 2 meet bao bei de..
cuz he say he wanna study..
so onli planned 2 wander ard 2 study or wad den go meet him at bout 6+..
but dun actually hav a place 2 go..
den oto scared he'll fall aslp studyin halfway..
so went over 2 his hs 2 deliver his big packet of apple juice..
but was dragged into his hs sayin jq oto goin..
so i sianx lo..
cuz its like wth..
he say can onli study alone..
den i dun c y he'd asked jq over 2 study wit him lox..
haix..
tink suan le la..
i cont grumblin oto no use..
oredy over liaox..

k den aft tat..
i did nth much lox..
jux spent e whole aftnn drawin n colorin e 'baka' i'd drew 4 bao bei..
den watch harry potter 3 at bout evenin lidat..
den went over 2 bukit gombak 2 look 4 daddy they all at er jie's mum-in-law's hs..
den went over 2 cdans 2 bowl til 11.30 lidat den went home..
sux man..
tink i'm losin my skill..
got 101 4 e 1st game..
den got onli 81 4 e 2nd game..
wth siax..

reached home at bout 12..
went 2 bathe..
den watch awhile of tv b4 callin bao bei..
den tink we both fell aslp agn?..
heex.. ^.^"
til mornin den i realised my phone got low batt w/o bein off..
lolx..
2nd time tis happ..
hahax..

den today..

went 2 tiong bahru plaza 2 watch shark tale wit sis they all 4 fam day at gv agn..
they hav a buffet there..
so ate sum of its cheese sandwich n all..
den went 2 get ourselves a seat at 9.30..
cuz was tired of standin..
den i fell aslp while waitin 4 e show 2 start which did at bout 10.15..
show ended at 12..
went 2 eat curry rice wit er jie b4 goin home..
den was caught in heavy rain on e way home..
so bo bian.. kena drenched..
but din bathe..
cuz goin out aft gettin my books n all..
(i'd onli brought my pouch out..)
dunno goin 2 study at where..
so let my feelin lead me..
end up findin myself 2 hav walked 2 bao bei's blk..
haix..
he din wanna meet 2day..
say he wanna study..
but did he study at all anot i oto dunno..
hu noes if he'd fell aslp wen he jux started study anot arx..
den jux sat under his blk 2 stare at my book..
actually din put too much hope on meet him..
cuz jux tot tat if he din realise it at all..
i wud jux sit there til its time 4 me 2 go home lox..
den he kept askin where i was..
but i kept sayin 'dunno dunno..'
mb he noes bahx..
or not sure or wad..
i dunnox..

den 1 kuku uncle came 2 sit in front of me..
den came tok 2 me..
wth siax..
is he brainless or toopid siax..
guess wad was his 1st qns?..
hahax..
'xiao mei mei fang xue le arx?..'
wth.. its sun lox.. -.-
so i jux replied lamely..
'jing tian dou bu yong du shu..'
lolx..
tink he totally sian diaox lox..
hahax..
hu cares..
hu ask him cum disturb me..
bleahx..
den was so so happi wen he was gone..
but hu noes he came bak aft bout 15mins later..
sian ½ lox..
diaox..
den lucky halfway thru bao bei called..
den he asked if i was under his blk..
sayin tat he can hear e same bakground as him thru my phone..
den i sian lox..
cuz no matter how i deny oto no use liaox..
but i heard his dad fr his bakground..
so din wanna go up..
so asked him 2 cum down..
tink tat was a big mistake bahx..
cuz of e wrong step i took..
ended up a quarrel btwn us lox..
haix..
or mb i shudnt even let myself go his hs there in e 1st place bahx..
den nth wil happ liaox..
haix..
but..
jux wanna spend sum private time wit him oto cannot mehx..
haix..

kk.. lemme cont fr there 1st..
so he came down wit his cpu..
i sian ½ lox..
he say wanna go sim lim repair his comp..
wth..
haix..
den bo bian..
go wit him lox..
den aft tat..
tot cud stil hv sum time wit him..
but he jux say wanna walk str..
den walk til suntec fr bugis there..
wth liaox..
i was so pissed off halfway lox..
cuz dunno he called jq or jq called him..
den asked him if he wanna go his hs study or wad..
make my very pissed of lox..
wth..
cuz if he say he can onli study alone..
i dun c how he can study wit jq ard lox..
wtf siax..
den i jux kept walkin til i reach city hall mrt stn there..
den went 2 take train w/o even tinkin lox..
jux wanna get out of e toopid place..
was so fucked off lox..

haix..
den i did sumting toopid..
by askin bao bei 4 a break up..
but i cried aft tat..
cuz i din really wan it 2 happ?..
or rather i was more of disappointed bahx..
cuz he din try 2 do anyting 2 'save' it..
jux said 'ni jue ding bahx..'
wat the..
so tat was wad i'd meant 2 him lox..
wo jue ding..
wtf siax..
haix..
i oto dunno wad le la..

jux noe we made up b4 he havta send me home..
den i din wanna let him hug or kiss..
cuz wil jux make me feel worst lox..
cuz if he did..
i'll spend tis exam peroid w/o him until very xin ku lox..
n if i'd let him hugged me tite..
wil jux make me feel worst..

haix..
dunno if i'd did wrong agn..
told him not 2 meet up til exam's over..
haix..
dunno how i'm gonna survive..
den..
he din smsed me since 2 hrs ago lox..
haix..
tink suan le bahx..
i oto dunno wats happ..
guess wil jux take as it comes bahx..
or mb wil jux break down agn in front of qing ren..
bu zhi dao..

wo zou lerx..

a packed dae..

2004-10-23T00:21:00.000+08:00

was supposed 2 meet bao bei at 9.15..
but tink he wasted too much time..
or mb not waste..
jux spent too much time on his math..
partly my fault too..
haix..
if ydae nv drag him go bugis den he wun end up lidat..
all my fault..
sianx..
den waited 4 him til bout 9.50 den he finally reached my hs de stn..
den was carryin e toopid poster..
so he n his fren shifted fr e double seater 2 e floor by e door..
den a lil ps..
cuz wit e toopid poster n all..
den c him chiong-ing his math like crazy..
wanna help him..
but he refused to lox..
*baka..*
went our own ways aft reachin sch..
cuz we both late 4 class le..

den at 12..
we're supposed 2 meet durin our break time..
but bao bei smsed 2 say he left his donation card at home..
so havta go home 2 get it..
so i sian lox..
nth 2 do..
so went over 2 wait 4 him at e mrt stn aft handin in our toopid ideas de tings..
tink i waited fr 12.30 til bout 1.10 lidat den saw him..
he was late 4 his test le lox..
tat baka..
nv change his habit of bein late..
*baka..*
tink he was kinda surprised 2 c me waitin 4 me there..
cuz i din tell him mahx..
so was jux sittin n sittin there n wait 4 him 2 appear lox..
dunno y i did tat..
jux wanna meet him..
even awhile i oto happy..
cuz can c him mahx..
kekex..
oopx.. =x

aft tat acc him 2 his lab there..
den i went over 2 t14 2 look 4 aaron they all..
den we went 2 eat at fc3..
aft tat went str 2 e autocad test..
tink e test a lil hopeless liaox..
cuz din hav enuff time 2 finish..
den damn sianx..
haix..
1st time i do test do til e last sec lox..
wth siax..

den aft tat went over 2 t10 there 2 look 4 bao bei..
cuz a lecturer was coachin him bout sum chapters he'd missed..
but i waited outside 4 him..
cuz din wanna disturb him..
cuz he was like payin so much attn on e tingy..
so din went in 2 disturb..
jux sat outside e room 2 read my teens mag..
until bout 5.15 lidat..
den he came out..
saw me sittin outside..
waitin 4 him..
cuz i hav jap test at 5.30..
so he asked me 2 go 1st..
cuz he haven finish oto..
woa de sianx..
tink my jap oto gone case liaox..
nv study..
sianx..

finished at 7..
den called bao bei..
said tat he jux left e lecturer's staffroom..
den say wanna go 2 his photography club 2 nua awhile den go home..
den stayed there til bout 7.35 lidat den we went home..
den e baka..
tricked me..
at 1st tot he's not goin 2 send me home..
cuz tot he's not usin 2 concession yet mahx..
(oh ya..
bao bei got bak his admin card..
ic..
n his ez-link card..)
but later aft tat he got out of e train jux as e door is closin..
*baka..
dun ever do tat agn oki..
its dangerous lox..
no more stuns fr u arx..*
den he sent me home..
din wanna let me go as usual..
oopx.. =x
did i say sumting?..
kekex..

bao bei..
hoped i din really disturb u 2day..
tats y jux kept waitin n waitin 4 u quietly..
jux hopin not 2 distract u or wad lox..
kekex..

though our meetin time was in bits n pieces..
but stil cherished every moment we soent 2gether lox..
dunno y..
though its jux awhile of time wit u despite of e long waitin time..
but stil..
wun hestitade 2 do it agn if it happ lo..
wil stil wanna wait 1 de lox..
baka..
jux wanna let u noe..
i really dun mind waitin 4 u 4 e short moments wit u lox..
oopx.. =x
miz u worx..
*muackx*

wo zou lerx..
xiang baka..
*muackx n huggiex*

a zhuo bo dae..

2004-10-21T23:13:00.000+08:00

hmmx..
was supposed 2 meet bao bei at my hs de mrt stn at 7.25..
but tat baka overslept..
woke up onli at 7.15..
wth siax..
ppl worry bout his proj so much 4 him..
but he like nth siax..
stil can slack slack..
but oto cun blame him..
he oto chiong until damn tired le lox..
den got my fault too..
keep goin there 2 disturb him..
hai him cannot finish on time..
*sorry bao bei..*
but tink now i say sorry oto too late liaox..
oredy hand in le..
too late 2 do anyting liaox..

aft tat went 2 his club(spac2go)..
nua abit..
den study til 11.30 lidat..
went over 2 salc 2 send sum files over 2 my sis..
den saw qing ren updatin her bloggy there..
read it oto le..
haix..
cun do much 2 help her except 2 listen 2 her grumble n all..
but wil squeeze time out 4 her no matter wad de lox..
but at 1st wanna go 3rd home 2dae de..
but tink her proj haven hand in..
so cancelled le..

so aft tat went 2 bao bei's photography club 2 cont nuain..
den jq came 2 join us..
den bao bei was actually restin on e sofa there wen jq forced him 2 go play badminton wit him at e sports hall..
den tink tat time i fell aslp le..
tats y din noe they were gone until i was woken up by qing ren's call..
den called bao bei 2 remind him tat he was supposed 2 meet his lecturer at 3..
(tats was oredy 3.15)
den he rushed bak 2 take his bag den go look 4 his lecturer..
was stil feelin slpy..
so ask bao bei if i cud stay there 2 cont slpin..
(guess i did it wrong tis time..
cuz was overcome by my sleepiness tat i din tot bout bao bei's feelings..
it was my fault..
cuz bao bei din really like 2 leave me there wit jq..
he noes i dun really like it?..)
den i jux cont slpin til bout 4.15 lidat..
den smsed bao bei if he was done..
but he din reply..
so chatted abit wit jq bout e gems de tingy..
den we sort of plan 2 go into e same course..
den mb can go same class..
den can do assignments 2gether..
hahax..
abit lame lox..

den at bout 5 lidat..
bao bei called 2 say he was done..
so lock up e place wit jq den faster rush 2 mrt stn 2 meet bao bei..
den e time..
not too late n not too early..
so went 2 bugis 2 walk walk..
brought bao bei 2 c if any of e pouches there tat can catch his eye..
but he saw none..
so went over 2 sim lim square 2 check e prices 4 his new comp..
den rushed them 2 go off..
cuz was afraid 2 b late 4 home..
cuz its thur rem?..
mum got belly dance..
ya..
so gotta b early..

sianx..
jux called bao bei..
heard tat he dun feel good..
tink my fault bahx..
cuz its like..
alot of bad tings start 2 happ aft i'm wit him lox..
haix..
hai xiang shi wo hai ta de lox..
i hate myself sumtimes..
see..
told u long time ago le rite..
shud hav stayed single in e 1st place..
now hai bao bei n his father quarrel..
all my fault..
tink shud meet bao bei lesser le..
lidat den he dun havta keep sendin me home..
den he wun waste so much money on transportation..
hate myself..
y am i not there wen he lost his wallet?..
while i'm havin fun in camp..
y?..
if i was wit him..
den he wun lost it le lox..
cuz i'll sure take his tings wit me de lox..
if he nv lost his wallet..
den he wun lose his $130..
all my fault..
if i din fold e double hearts 4 him wit his $50 n $10 notes den he wun place them in his wallet le..
if i was there wit him..
den he wun lose his ez-link card..
his ic..
his admin card..
his safra card..
n all e impt tings lox..
wth..
aRgHx..
den now..
caused him 2 quarrel wit his ah ma n dad..
wth siax me..
y had i always brought troubles 2 my bf de?..
fuk me larx..
they din hav a good impression of me in da 1st place liaox..
if i din agree 2 b wit him..
den all these wun happ le lox..
fuk me..
but now..
its too late le lox..
i wun bear 2 leave him de lox..
but if..
if he'll b happier n more peaceful w/o me..
i wun hestitate 2 leave him..
really..
cuz i jux wan him 2 b happy..
tats all..

¼ qing ren..
sorry worx..
sorry 4 not bein there 4 u wen u needed me most?..
guess i'm too obessed wit bao bei le..
but..
at tis time..
he need me too..
so i'm sorry oki..
but..
muz jian qiang orh..
i'll stil b there 4 u de..
i promise..
jia you oki..
*hUgGiEx*

bao bei..
guess i'm sorry 4 wad happ?..
i dunnox..
u noe i hate 2 lose u..
but i dun wanna cause any disputes btwn u n ur family..
i dunno whether its my fault anot..
but i juz hope 2 do sumting 4 u tat mite sumhow make u feel beta..
i dunno how..
but if there's anyting i can help..
jux tell me oki..
n IF..
if onli arx..
if u're forced 2 leave me by ur parents or hu..
dun hestitate 2 do so oki..
i wun blame u de..
u noe i nv wanted u 2 feel xing ku wit me..

tink fr now on i wun bug u too much le..
wil control myself 1..
wil oto leave u alone wen u need 2 study n all..
i noe study is ur top priority..
so..
i noe wad 2 do de la oki..

jux wanna let u noe..
i miz u alot..
really anot anot..
n..
dun ever do wad u did 2 me in train 2day agn oki..
dun ignore me oki..
u noe how much i'd wanted 2 catch ur attn?..
or at least..
jux hold my hand or wad lox..
i dun wanna feel leave out or wad oki..

n pls bear wit me if i anyhow fa bi qi oki..
i din meant 2 de lox..
czu as i'd told u..
my period comin liaox..
so abit pms..
abit mood swing n all..
dun feel sian or wad oki..
jux heck care me can liaox..
cuz i wil auto oki de..
so dun trouble urself 2 try 2 pacify me k..
*mUaCkX n HuGgIeX*

wo zou lerx..
*hen xiang bao bei..*

miz baobei..

2004-10-21T01:13:00.000+08:00

woke up at bout 10..
went str 2 sch..
den go club..
but c nobody there..
i mean hav la..
but i dunno e guy..
so went over 2 mmec..
den shun bian ask them 2 teach me mechanics oto..
bo bian..
cuz got test..
den went 2 class at 12..
hopin 2 get sum help b4 e test starts..
den more sian wen tcher told me i need 2 score well 2 pass e module..
den i sian lox..
wth..
oredy stressin 2 pass le..
den now add on 2 my stress onli..
-.-
but lucky he gave me sum tips durin e test..
but he got enlighten me anot i oto dun really noe..
cuz abit lil dun understand wad he tokin lox..
so feelin a lil like dui bu qi him lidat..
haix..
now stil tinkin if i can pass anot siax..
*stressed*
but oredy over liaox..
there's nth i can do oto le la..
hahax..

aft tat went 2 meet bao bei at fc3..
den acc him 2 saa 2 look 4 e dunno hu 4 his leadership cruise de tingy..
aft went 2 t14 2 acc him chiong proj agn..
fell aslp halfway while he was doin it..
tink tats e onli time he can really conc bahx..
cuz tink i'd stil sum sort of disturbed him..
cuz all i did was jux sittin bside him n jux starin at him lo..
jux him lo.. not e comp..
den he like oto cun help peepin at me sumtimes..
so.. heex.. *^.^*

den at 8 e room has a class scheduled..
so havta change room..
den aft bookin a new comp wit my admin card..
(bao bei lost his wallet last week wit everyting inside..
admin card.. ic.. atm card n all..)
i was damn urgent 2 use e toilet lox..
but nite le..
i'm kinda scared lox..
so dragged him wit me 2 e toilet..
at 1st was him 2 wait 4 me outside..
but wen i refused 2 go in..
tat baka of mine went inside 2 wait 4 me..
heex.. ^.^"
but b4 i cud get out of my cubical..
tat baka oto urgent..
so he jux jie jue rite inside e gal's toilet..
lolx..
den aft tat i intended 2 go mrt stn there de shop 2 buy yan yan..
(was a lil hungry le..)
but wen i'd walked all e way there..
e shop had closed oredy..
damn sianx lox..
den gotta walk bak empty-handed..
but as i walk pass e vendin mac at eee there..
tot of buyin sum biscuits 2 eat lox..
den sianx..
cuz i got no change..
wat the..
its like got money no food lidat lox..
hell man..
den stil nvm..
there's more bhind..
den they're at e 6th story..
den its like..
u noe i'm scared..
den sum more e lift was not on e 2nd floor..
den sian lo..
means i gotta wait..
den worst..
e light there flickerin..
makes e ting worst lox..
wth..
den bo bian..
climb stairs all e way up lox..
diaox..
den its like i nv stop at all lox..
so was pantin a lil wen i joined bao bei..
den he kinda luff at me wen i'd told him e shop is closed lox..
as i was stil pantin..
den i stil used tat kinda yan shen 2 look at him..
he tot i was goin 2 kill him..
lolx..
but all i did was jux stare at him..
lolx..
so he kinda shocked wen i jux slack down in my chair..
lolx..
den he do til e lab close den go..
(means 9pm..)
but he gotta finish by 2ml..
so he decided 2 go 2 sch early 2 chiong finish it b4 his presentation..
as he was usin my acc..
so means i gotta go down early too lox..
(lab opens at 8am..
his presentation's at 9am..)
actually he wan me 2 pass my admin card 2 him de..
but i dun wan..
cuz wanna acc him..
bleahx..
dun care..
oopx.. =x

bao bei..
sorry worx..
tink i'd disturbed u agn..
i promise wil jux sit there n study 2ml oki..
cuz i noe u're really pressin 4 time le..
1 hr left lox..
i do noe e importance..
dun c me lidat..
i noe wats impt n wats not de oki..
baka..

like i'd said..
dun worry if i'll get bored..
i can always jux sit there n watch u do ur tings de lox..
jux like 2day..
though stil caused a lil of distraction 2 u..
but tats not really my fault wad..
hu asked u 2 peep at me..
oppx.. =x
bleex..
*muackx*

wo zou lerx..
*miz bao bei*
*muackx n huggiex*

a dae spent wit baka..

2004-10-19T21:28:00.000+08:00

hmmx..
woke up at bout 7.15..
went 2 wash up..
den faster go help papa iron his uniform b4 i go out..
(was supposed 2 iron it ydae nite de..)
den left home at bout 7.45..
den went 2 bao bei's hs..
(we planned 2 meet den go sch..)
helped him cleared his cupboard..
den played gb wit him..
actually is jux watchin him play la..
cuz he was e 1 shottin n all..
den sianx..
cuz i din get 2 play..
-.-"
aft tat went 2 slp..
cuz really tired..
i woke up so early jux 2 meet him lox..
den jq asked if he wanna meet 2 go sch 2gether..
but we wasted time til bout 1.30 lidat..
den he decided not 2 go sch le..
(i dun hav class in da 1st place..
n he was supposed 2 meet his grpmates at nn in sch..)
cuz he wanna do e proj at home..
but later aft tat his comp broke down..
spent a few hours tryin 2 fix it..
wen his comp was cfm 2 hav broke down..
he decided 2 go sch 2 finish his proj..
(tat time was oredy 5+ le lox..)
den i was damn hungry..
so went 2 eat at yishun interchange..
den e baka..
oredy late le stil wanna acc me..
den i bo bian..
so let him acc..
den faster eat..
den took train 2gether..
but i got off at marsiling..
cuz promised mum 2 b home early..
while bao bei cont his trip 2 sch..
den bathe..
den eat..
den blog..
den now goin 2 iron papa's clothes liaox..
(onli ironed 1 set 4 him..)

bao bei..
sorry worx..
tink it was my fault 2 drag ur time?..
den hai u so late den reach sch..
hope u din kena blamed..
if u did..
its my fault lox..
i'm baka oki..
miz u alot..
dunno y..
jux feel like bao bao u..
oopx.. =x

wo zou lerx..
*mix bao bei*
*muackx n huggiex*

a baka day spent..

2004-10-19T01:17:00.000+08:00

hmmx..
jux bak fr my sis's new house..
(near bukit gombak stn..
called e goodview garden..)
went 2 her hs 4 dinner..
her so-called house-warmin..
lolx..
wit jux our own family..
hahax..

anw..
her house is nice..
so retro yet modern..
its so stylish lox..
jux like e way my sis is..
cuz she's a very stylish person..
onli those really very unique n special tings wil catch her eye..
i mean..
she hav her own idea of how she wan tings 2 b dEn she look 4 it..
but its really very nice..
even her toilet is hard 2 locate..
cuz she hid it behind a cupboard..
means its actually e door of her toilet..
lolx..
n e color combi..
its very nice lox..
hahax..
though they r solid colors..
as in those solid orange n red n all..
e whole ting looks damn nice lox..
hahax..
oopx..
she jux did it in a very nice way..

oki..
enuff of her hs..
bak 2 wad happ in e aftnn..
aft e last entry..
went bak clubbie 2 nua awhile..
den went over 2 mmec 2 study..
cuz they hav table there..
den seein e other ppl study made me study too lox..
aft tat smsed baobei..
was told tat he was sick n din come sch..
was damn worried bout him lox..
so fly down 2 yishun 2 look 4 him..
at tat moment really everyting oto dun care le lox..
even my leg..
jux walk asap 2 e bbc i tink he wil b at lox..
cuz i dunno which bus 2 take..
onli noe how 2 go thru e route he rode me 2 his hs..
so use walk de lox..
oto bot a packet of apple juice 4 him..
jux tot he mite feel thirsty aft playin..

den saw him b4 i'd even crossed e road..
went 2 sit there n watch him..
aft tat he told me he injured his ankle..
tink he really qian da lox..
wth..
means we both bao ka liaox..
tootx..
den jq came 2 meet us..
stil asked us 2 faster cross e road..
-.-
went 2 yishun central 2 find e tui na shop 4 him..
took us quite sumtime 2 locate 1..
den c him so painful lidat..
my heart really aches lox..
den e baka..
stil dun wanna grab my hand..
he jux refused 2 lox..
even though he's holdin my hand..
he wasnt applyin any kinda force on it lox..
den jux suppress everyting on his face n all..
really xin tong lei..
baka..
really can feel e pain 4 him lox..
den got 1 point of time..
e sensei pressed a part of his feet where he feels its ichy lox..
den he cun take it tat he jux hugged me very tightly..
kekex.. *^.^*

aft tat jq went home..
den he sent me 2 mrt stn..
cuz was late 4 e 'appointment' wit er jie they all..
but stil spent bout 30mins lidat wit him at e stn there..
jux wanna clear up our misunderstandings n all..
den boo..
in my sis's hs le..
hagax..

¼ qing ren..
since u'd oredy came out wit e conclusion..
den dun tink too much bout it liaox..
jux rem fan shi you wo zai..
*huggiex*

baobei..
jux wanna tell u..
u noe its kinda impossible 2 hav my own life aft i hav u lox..
cuz u're my BaObEi..
so means u'd oredy stand quite a big part in my life le lox..
baka..
but wil promise u 2 finish my own tings 1st..

n hor..
u arx..
dun always make ppl worry oki..
u noe how worried i was wen u told me u're too sick 2 go 2 sch..
so next time dun baka k..

n hor..
we promised 2 share everyting de hor..
so muz tell me no matter wad happ k..
if not..
i'll go crazy de lox..
if not its like i dunno wad happ lox..
den i'll feel very fed up n all de lox..
den wil lose my temper n all de..
if u wan me 2 b more understandin n all..
mUz tell me wad happ k..
if not its like..
i dunno wth happ..
den how u wan me 2 b understandin worx..
its baka tat way lox..
baka..

sianx..
miz u alot lox..
stil told me mite not b meetin me tis week..
told u le..
i dun mind sittin there doin nth 2 jux watch u do ur tings lox..
like i'd jux 2 feel ur presence lox..
heex.. *^.^*
so dun baka n chase me home oki..
hen xiang ni worx..
si baka..
*mUaCkX n HuGgIeX*

wo zou lerx..
*xIaNg BaObEi*

confused

2004-10-18T13:40:00.000+08:00

fuk..
dunno wats e hell happenin..
diaox lo..
guess wad..
he'd onli smsed me aft i tink bout 9 hrs lidat den he sms me..
den stil nvm..
was hopin i cud meet him or wad..
fuk lox..
3 daes lei..
in camp 4 3 daes..
den its fuk..
tootx..

den oto dunno wad the hell he wan fr me..
say wan freedom n all..
den now dun wanna meet me..
wat the......
jux dunno wth he wan..
say wad wan me 2 b more understandin..
nv tell me anyting or wad how 2 understand?..
den ask me not 2 tink so much..
same wad..
nv tell me watd happenin den how 2 not 2 tink too much?..
wth man..
fuk lox..
haix..
now make me tink until dun even noe if tis relationship is even workin out anot..
dun even noe if i'm sTiL his gf anot..
wth..
damn sad lox..
haix..
i oto dunno le la..
jux feel tat he's keepin sumting fr me..
den e old ting happ agn..
feels like as if he's smsin his fren agn..
or even jux a a norm fren..
haix..
fuk..

zou le la..

ta da i ma su~ (i'm bak~)

2004-10-18T02:34:00.000+08:00

heyo ppl..
bak fr camp..
jux woke up n had my dinner..
heex..

sorry 4 not updatin 2 few daes b4 my camp..
cuz was chiong-ing proj..
so.. ps lax..
qing duo duo yuan liang oh..
heex..

hmmx..
letme tink wad happ on thur k..
ps la..
u all noe me got stm 1..
hehx..

ehx..
oh ya..
rem liaox..
so..
here i go liaox..

thur.. (14/10)

went 2 sch 4 thermo tut..
do nth there..
end up listen 2 my chay tok bout e gems tingy..
oh ya..
4got 2 ask baobei wad 2 take 4 e managment cat..
nvm..

anw..
e tingy finish at bout 11..
1 hour nia lo e lesson..
den aft tat go t14 there chiong e toopid idea proj..
den server down agn..
wth siax..
den took us bout 10 or 15 mins lidat 2 book a toopid comp..
den went 2 hav lunch at fc4 at bout 12.30 lidat i guess..
(bao bei was there too..
but tink i din hear my phone ring..
onli saw it at bout 1 lidat..)
den went bak 2 t14 2 chiong proj..

finished at bout 2.30..
so went 2 clubbie play awhile..
cuz meetin him at 3 2 catch a movie..
den jq called..
so asked him 2 join us..

went 2 jp 2 watch white chicks..
hahax..
luff til we all peng..
lolx..
damn funny lox..
hahax..
aft e show..
was kinda early..
so acc jq 2 go pet stn awhile..
enjoy watchin e doggies n hamsters play..
den keep grumblin 2 bao bei tat i wan 1 of them in e future..
hahax..

den he sent me home at bout 6.50..
cuz gotta b home by 7.45..
its a thurs..
mum got belly dance lesson..
so gotta b home 2 babysit my niece..

fri.. (15/10)

was late 4 sch..
woke up onli at 7.30..
hahax..
den sianx..
cuz gotta present 4 both e ideas n e toopid oc..
den faster prepare 2 go sch..
reached at bout 8.15 lidat..
den faster fly 2 e class..

tink both presentation sux man..
hai..
dun tok bout it liaox..

aft e whole n finish at bout 11.45..
went 2 club nua..
den sat outside sac there 2 wait 4 bao bei..
cuz he doin duty at saa..
initially e told me 12..
but i waited til 1 den he appear..
-.-

aft tat went home..
ate..
packed bag..
no time 2 take e nap..
cuz meetin him at 4 in sch..
den faster leave home le..

he brought me 2 je de lib..
den we read e pgy de comic..
hahax..
a lil funny..
but meaningful..

den drag til i'm late 4 jap class..
got test..
but stil..
din go lox..
haix..
suan liaox..

went bak sch 2 c him chiong proj at salc..
den saw dry mum(andrea) there..
den faster go sac there report at 7..
den told qing ren i nv go 4 test..
she almost killed me man..
*sorry*

in camp.. (1st dae)

hmmx..
tink i dun say too much..
jux mention how i 'suffer' there can liaox..
hahax..

in e 2nd game i tink..
cun really rem liaox..
called dunno dungeon dunno wad de..
at bussiness blk there de..

we gotta hide n all..
if we kena caught by e catchers..
we'll b sent 2 e 'torture room' or wad de..
(its actually a toilet lox..)

k..
so here's wad hap 2 me..
we're actually hiddin bhind a particular building..
as u noe..
sp de buildings all weird weird de..
got those pillars protrudin outta e walls..
den as me n xue ni ar shiftin place..
i'd actully tripped on sumting(i dunno wad)..
den its either e drain or e wall lox..
so i chose e wall..
den dunno y my right knee go hit e edge of e pillar..
den i jux hit flat on e pillar lox..
wth..
n it hurts my knee..
it buang rite in e centre of my kneecap..
den noe hei qing..
but not pain..
den e impact quite big..
cuz my whole knee go numb aft tat..
pain til i wanna faint lidat lox..
but recovered quite fast..

den e 2nd incident..
at e game aft tat..
we gotta go hunt 4 liferings ard e sch campus..

at t8 e tunnel there..
kena scare by irene n lao pa they all..
den me n xue nee borke down..
cuz its damn fukin dark there lox..
den they all jux pop out fr nowhere..
wth..
den ah gong gave another combo..
-.-"
tis time xue nee really down liaox..
i refuse 2 go bak..
so stayed wit them..
den walked in e middle..
partner wit xiang ming..

aft e scare..
got all e directions all mixed up..
den gotta u-turn bak e 2 actual place we were initially headin to b4 e scare..
aft tat e area bcame a danger zone..
but we all heck care..
den cont walkin bak 2 t8 e tunnel there..
but aft leavin lib there not more dan 5 mins..
kena caught n scare by cm n yy(they r e devils)..
i broke down agn lox..
haix..
aft tat..
oto not more dan 5 mins..
kena scare n caught by irene they all agn..
stil..
broke down..
really bth le lox..
den met yw(angel) oto..
gave us another lifering..
(saw them earlier on n got 1 fr them)
tink our gro really damn jia lat lox..
kena scare so many times..

tot was e end of it..
but tings jux dun end tat way..
we happ 2 meet jw de grp along e way..
its like we're walkin past each other face 2 face lox..
den pauline ask y their gro like short of sum ppl lidat..
den she jux carry on walkin str..
den e toopid jw jux sudden appear fr bhind e pillar 2 scare her lox..
den wth.
scare me oto..
tis time really cry until damn jia lat le lox..
*toopid jw*

wth lox..
our grp really kena lotsa scarin durin e game lox..

ydae.. (2nd dae)

tink nth much happ..
went 2 play a toopid game where they all jux shower us wit powder n more powder..
hahax..
den later in e aftnn..
me knee dunno wad happ..
both knee numbed..
den pain oto lox..
cannot walk..
den medic help me massage..
den later really pain til bth..
den eunice n zh br me go clemeni there c sensei..
den sian lox..
e ma guang havin diiner break..
6 den open..
cuz we reached at bout 5.15 lidat..
den we all sit outside..
drink honey drink..
eat mango pudding..
*thx ½ ge qing ren*

den wen open le..
went in..
was e 1st there..
cuz we all jux sittin outside nia mahx..
so c it open le faster chiong in..
hahax..

damn pain lox..
den eunice stand there letme grab her arm..
*sorry worx..
hope it din hurt u..*
den aft she finish massagin..
really damn pain lox..
keep askin them 2 cut away my leg..
hahax..
den jux dun feel like walkin..
its freakin pain..

tink not much 2 say oto le..

oh ya..
n e disco nite..
fuk sia..
cun join in agn..
(my leg was injured in e last camp too..)
was doin nth in bunk wen they're havin fun..
den finally fell aslp at bout 1.30 or 2 lidat..

2day.. (17/10)

woke up at bout 9.30..
went 2 change clothes..
(din bathe at all last nit lox..)
den went 2 hav bf as usual..
den performance..
den pack up..
den photo takin..
den finish liaox..

den went 2 meet baka at cwp..
went 2 acc him buy bb shorts..
den asked me 2 buy e same 1 as him..
hahax..
den went 2 eat..
den brought him 2 one of my fav spots near my hs..
den went home..

went 2 slp w/o bathin once i touched home..
really bth liaox..
den slpt on da floor..
(halo.. i din bathe lei..
sum more my leg cun touch water yet..)

woke up due 2 my niece's wailings..
den fed her her congee mum cooked b4 goin out..
den mum called 2 ask if i'd eaten..
aske her 2 buy e 2 cheese pratas..
*yum yum*
den went 2 bathe..
den eat..
den wash up e dishes..
den here liaox..

den now fukin pissed off..
dunno y oto..
dunno wth he wants..

1st say hav more freedom wen i'm in camp..
fine lox..
u wan e freedom..
u hav it la..
den now tell me u dun wann meet cuz of ur tat topid pimple..
its a fukin lame excuse lox..
if u dun wann ameet den juz say it right into my face lox..
wth..
i'm in camp 3 daes..
n hell lox..
was missin u so badly..
den now u tell me tis..
wth..
aRgH..

¼ qing ren..
muz hao hao rest orh..
muz b tired aft e camp..
den gotta start studyin lerx..
exams comin liaox..

½ ge qing ren..
thx 4 takin care of me worx..
n sorry..
4 makin u cun go 4 ur event..
hehx.. ^.^"
muz take care of urself oto worx..
*huggiex*

zhen hui..
thx 4 transportin me 2 e sensei there worx..
if not i really cun walk initially le lox..
really pain until..
wha piangx le..
heex..
xie xie ni orh..
u muz take care too..
bu yao lei huai zhi ji orh..

da zhu..
heex..
wil take care de la..
sorry 2 let u worry..
heex..
u oto mux hao hao rest orh..
*huggiex*

daerie..
thx 4 transportin me ard aft i'm bak fr e doc..
tink u'd tire urself out too..
muz take care..
*huggiex*

ah gong..
bu yao lei huai zhi ji le oh..
exams comin liaox..
yao take care arx..

xue nee n my grpmates..
heyo..
thx 4 takin care of me worx..
hehx..
ma fan ni men lerx..
ye xin ku ni men lerx..
mux hav good rest n take care oki..
*huggiex*

mummie..
dun worry la..
wil take care of myslef de..
u oto mux take care oki..
mux hav a good rest oto..
*huggiex*

medic..(dunno how 2 spell her name)
thx 4 all those massagin..
durin e camp..
xin ku ni le..
xie xie nie orh..
muz take care of urslef oki..

zou le la..

server down day..

2004-10-13T19:00:00.000+08:00

finally got comp 2 use liaox..
-.-"
noe wad happ?..
cuz jux now was released early..
so went 2 fc5 wit aaron they all 2 eat kfc..
den rec a sms fr qing ren..
felt sumting was wrong..
so din go 4 tutorial..
den went 2 our lao di fang 2 look 4 her..
i reached there quietly..
den found her sittin jux by herself..
so jux stood there..
waitin 4 her 2 look up..
had a lil tok wit her..
den we decided 2 go 2 salc 2 blog..

but wen we reached there..
e toopid koisk was down..
den saw e gal in front of us callin 2 operator n all..
den she was like a lil too exageratin lox..
hahax..
cuz she told e operator tat she had been waitin 4 like bout an hour lidat..
den (hahax..) we was like jux reached there 4 bout 5 mins nia lox..
lolx..
den she gave e koisk a kick b4 walkin off..
fierce man..
lolx..

aft tat hang agn..
but qing ren say she saw e tingy okay agn aft we walked off..
-.-"
so we went 2 t14 there..
hopin 2 book a comp fr any of e levels there lox..
but..
wth..
e koisk hung agn lox..
diaox..den li shi cong yan another time..
-.-..
sum more jux now a few turns b4 ours..
1 of e gal hung e koisk agn..
den it bcame okay aft she walked off lox..
-.-"

den we both sianx..
so decided 2 go bak 2 club..
den saw inside so many ppl..
dun feel like goin in..
so we jux sat outside e club..
den han qi qi came 2 join us sit outside club..
so we're like 3 beggers lidat..
sittin outside our club like 3 sleepy kuku..
hahax..
den wen in awhile..
den saw ah gong..
den he chased me home..
(cuz i am down wit flu..)
den i went out lox..
so sat at fc5 there de bench 2 wait 4 bao bei..
den xue nee cum find me..
ask me go club 2 wait..
if not i sit there alone oto bu fang xin..
scared later dunno wad happ 2 me w/o any1 noein it..
den went 2 fc3..
(xue nee say pauline they all chattin there mahx..)
but din find any1..
den i bot a cup of apple juice..
din noe its green apple de..
(i hate green apples..
super sour..)
-.-"
den bo bian..
gotta drink it..
not cheap noe..
den put sum salt inside 2 neutralise it..
hahax..

den went bak 2 club..
den kena ah gong scold..
he say 'really wan me 2 book cab 4 u den u'll go home izit..'
den xue nee speak up 4 me..
heex..
*thx xue nee..*

rec a call fr jq..
askin if my club got ppl fr guitar club 1..
cuz he wanna play e electric guitar there..
too bad dun hav..
den ha say comin over 2 look 4 me later..

den went off wit him..
tink they all wu hui jq jiu shi baka..
hahax..
anw..
my conscience is clear can liaox..

stil dun wanna gib up..
so went bak 2 salc agn..
but stil..
history repeated itself..
so we ended up sittin at e stairs at t14 there nua..
den we play wit each other's phone..
den tok cock..
den until bout 5.15 lidat..
stil refuse 2 gib up..
den go try 2 book comp agn..
den finally got a comp in salc fr t14 there de koisk..
kekex..

butden e internet cun use..
den went 2 book 4 another comp..
den e koisk..
hang agn..
wth siax..
den bao bei called..
say he comin over salc 2 do his proj..
but stucked there 4 bout 30mins lidat..
den came 2 t14l6..
den now..
finally got comp liaox..
sum more his frenx all in e same lab..
kekex..
finalla settle down liaox..
but tink i mite havta go off 1st..
cuz mum need me 2 b home early..
(she got dancin prac..
tink she sat got performance of wad..)

¼ qing ren..
dun tink too much oki..
dun stressed urself up oto..
dun wan u 2 break down in camp..
wan u 2 enjoy it wit us oki..
faster clear it..
den can throw it aside le..
jia you worx..
*hUgGiEx*

bao bei..
sorry bout wad happ in e mornin..
noe i was at fault too..
but..
mb its cuz i wanted 2 c u badly or wad bahx..
dui bu qi worx..
n..
though u sittin behind me doin ur proj..
stil wanna say..
miz u worx..
kekex..
*muackx n huggiex*

wo zou lerx..
*miz bao bei*
oopx.. =x

冰之恋: the world of bao beis n bakas

*news*

post bdae..

bdae bdae!!

*xin ku wo lerx*

*none*

sianx..

backie~

in reply 2 his blog

*none*

so damn fukin dIsApPoInTeD..

he's stil mine~ kekex..

*heartbroken*

am i stil his xin fu?..

*unwell*

honey worx..

he's bak.. but..

*love sick*

sianx ½ (II)

sianx ½ (I)

another honey dae..

a honey dae..

*stil tired*

i'm buack~

我不想放手..

a dae spent wit chillies n limes..

*hApPy*

am cryin.. 4 bao bei..

*sianx*

*in pain but shiok*

*kan jiong*

*addicted*

*love sick*

so sweet..

1 mth liaox.. *^.^*

*pIsSeD oFf*

woo hoo~

hmmx..

decomposing day..

a wad dae u mean?..

1st paper over..

i broke it.. but shiok.. kekex..

a break..

a packed dae..

a zhuo bo dae..

miz baobei..

a dae spent wit baka..

a baka day spent..

*confused*

ta da i ma su~ (i'm bak~)

server down day..

news

xin ku wo lerx

none

none

heartbroken

unwell

love sick

stil tired

hApPy

sianx

in pain but shiok

kan jiong

addicted

love sick

1 mth liaox.. ^.^

pIsSeD oFf

confused